Not only am I autistic sub5 and look like a creepy pedo, but I also have horrific panic disorder causes by my OCD that gives me terrible panic attacks most times I go out in places like the store or gym, doesn't seem to be as bad in nature but still does happen often enough
Being in a car is out of the question I get a guaranteed panic attack inside one so I haven't been inside a car for like 2 years now, public transport ain't an option either, so I just go everywhere on my bike
The main thing stopping me from getting on meds is I still can't accept that my brain is just absolutely fucked and needs it just to not eat itself alive, read post after post on r/OCD of people praising SSRIs because they completely saved their lives, but I still can't bring myself to just call them up, they'll prescribe me them immediately they're so med happy, it'd be so fucking easy and I just can't bring myself to do it
Anyways rant over, just wanted to say how being agoraphobic as a subhuman is about the most pathetic and embarrassing position you can be in as a human
Being in a car is out of the question I get a guaranteed panic attack inside one so I haven't been inside a car for like 2 years now, public transport ain't an option either, so I just go everywhere on my bike
The main thing stopping me from getting on meds is I still can't accept that my brain is just absolutely fucked and needs it just to not eat itself alive, read post after post on r/OCD of people praising SSRIs because they completely saved their lives, but I still can't bring myself to just call them up, they'll prescribe me them immediately they're so med happy, it'd be so fucking easy and I just can't bring myself to do it
Anyways rant over, just wanted to say how being agoraphobic as a subhuman is about the most pathetic and embarrassing position you can be in as a human
