Deleted member 8353
Former Hikikomori, Aimless Pleasure Seeker
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- May 29, 2018
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JFL@ retards telling me to "be myself", that's legit the worst advice they could possibly give me, something which I've known better than to even try since I was 17. Of course the social problem with faking dominance is similar to what happens when you fake confidence, usually nobody actually buys it.
When I was a teenager my own father asked me dozens of times if I was gay, suggesting that he wouldn't care if I was. It took several years for him to finally believe me when I told him that I wasn't, or at least for him to stop asking, I can't read his mind after all. But the most hilarious part is that I honestly wish I were gay, I'd be so much better off if I were gay tbh. Women despise the thought of dating a submissive man, probably almost as much as they hate sub 5s in general. So not only am I an ugly social retard(thanks to years of isolation), but I essentially have to play a fake character whenever I'm in public just to even start playing the game, a game which I have no clue how to play thanks to missing developmental milestones.
Every interaction outside my house feels like I'm being attacked, thanks to crippling avpd/social anxiety, and I have to worry about putting on a fucking show on top of it. My brain is just fucked tbh, not only was I born wrong, I grew up wrong as well.
When I was a teenager my own father asked me dozens of times if I was gay, suggesting that he wouldn't care if I was. It took several years for him to finally believe me when I told him that I wasn't, or at least for him to stop asking, I can't read his mind after all. But the most hilarious part is that I honestly wish I were gay, I'd be so much better off if I were gay tbh. Women despise the thought of dating a submissive man, probably almost as much as they hate sub 5s in general. So not only am I an ugly social retard(thanks to years of isolation), but I essentially have to play a fake character whenever I'm in public just to even start playing the game, a game which I have no clue how to play thanks to missing developmental milestones.
Every interaction outside my house feels like I'm being attacked, thanks to crippling avpd/social anxiety, and I have to worry about putting on a fucking show on top of it. My brain is just fucked tbh, not only was I born wrong, I grew up wrong as well.