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... but it's coming to an end.
I've been a NEET for a little more than a year now and my mental health has never been this good. It's not particularly good currently either, but I'm way better off now than when I was in high school or university. I had a lot of time to cope with reading books on philosophy, history, reading about the blackpill and since I'm young (21) copes like video games, movies, masturbation still work for me.
Two years ago I dropped out of university after the first two semesters cause it was just too brutal for me, but now I'm going back to another one. I really didn't want to go back, but my parents told me I either go back to uni or I have to find a job. I obviously chose university, no one would hire an unskilled autistic subhuman like me.
Just the thought of waking up early, studying for stupid exams, mogged by chads every second of everyday and ignored by girls all the time makes my stomach churn. I wanted to rope every single day when I was in my previous university, just being there was a torture for me. There were days where I would just hid in the restroom for hours and watched youtube videos on my phone and jerked off like I did in high school and elementary school.
I'm fairly sure I won't last long and I'm going to drop out again and my parents will force me to find a job or they'll kick me out.
I don't have any goals in this life. I don't want to achieve anything. I don't want to do anything besides rotting in my room forever.
I've been a NEET for a little more than a year now and my mental health has never been this good. It's not particularly good currently either, but I'm way better off now than when I was in high school or university. I had a lot of time to cope with reading books on philosophy, history, reading about the blackpill and since I'm young (21) copes like video games, movies, masturbation still work for me.
Two years ago I dropped out of university after the first two semesters cause it was just too brutal for me, but now I'm going back to another one. I really didn't want to go back, but my parents told me I either go back to uni or I have to find a job. I obviously chose university, no one would hire an unskilled autistic subhuman like me.
Just the thought of waking up early, studying for stupid exams, mogged by chads every second of everyday and ignored by girls all the time makes my stomach churn. I wanted to rope every single day when I was in my previous university, just being there was a torture for me. There were days where I would just hid in the restroom for hours and watched youtube videos on my phone and jerked off like I did in high school and elementary school.
I'm fairly sure I won't last long and I'm going to drop out again and my parents will force me to find a job or they'll kick me out.
I don't have any goals in this life. I don't want to achieve anything. I don't want to do anything besides rotting in my room forever.
