My list of problems, from most impactful to least:
-memory is shit (this is the biggest one). at almost every job i get the line "you should know this by now" after a few months into a job. it's so painful that it takes me 10 times longer than everyone else, to learn basic shit. eventually people start to treat me like the retard i am. i constantly get up to do something but after walking five steps i forget what the hell i was going to do. i constantly get lost driving places, and i can never remember street names (which is important for my current job). a gps gets me where i'm going, but when people try and give me directions using road names or landmarks, i get confused in a matter of seconds.
-i don't process speech as fast as most people, so i need people to repeat things two or even three times for me to get it. that's if i'm lucky, after a certain point, some people don't even bother. i'm constantly lost in conversation and almost always miss the bigger picture because i can't even process the details.
-i have a hint of aspergers or something, because even though I can read body language, i never know what the right thing is to say. if i ever try to contribute to the conversation, i literally suck the air out of the room. my conversation/communication skills suck, i never know what to say.
so basically every job i've ever had i've been fired from or have been bullied out of (five in total). I've only been able to last 2 years, at best, in any position I've had. i'm a horrible combination of always being the lowest performer and being the least liked socially as well. i've been called stupid, retarded to my face, and had doors slammed in my face (that happened twice at two different jobs). it sucks to always be at the bottom of the pecking order, always, even among "friends". meanwhile, all the people i know from high school are succeeding and constantly getting promotions, while i'll likely never be able to hold down a job. i'm 31 and i never thought my low iq would be the driving cause of my suicide.
even if i manage to trick a girl into being with me, they'll quickly find out how fucking stupid i am, just like everyone else in my life has. my low iq will scare them away so quick it would have my dumb brain spinning. i couldn't betabux, even if i wanted to.
i feel like i'm barely able to play 1D checkers while everyone else is able to play 5D chess.
-memory is shit (this is the biggest one). at almost every job i get the line "you should know this by now" after a few months into a job. it's so painful that it takes me 10 times longer than everyone else, to learn basic shit. eventually people start to treat me like the retard i am. i constantly get up to do something but after walking five steps i forget what the hell i was going to do. i constantly get lost driving places, and i can never remember street names (which is important for my current job). a gps gets me where i'm going, but when people try and give me directions using road names or landmarks, i get confused in a matter of seconds.
-i don't process speech as fast as most people, so i need people to repeat things two or even three times for me to get it. that's if i'm lucky, after a certain point, some people don't even bother. i'm constantly lost in conversation and almost always miss the bigger picture because i can't even process the details.
-i have a hint of aspergers or something, because even though I can read body language, i never know what the right thing is to say. if i ever try to contribute to the conversation, i literally suck the air out of the room. my conversation/communication skills suck, i never know what to say.
so basically every job i've ever had i've been fired from or have been bullied out of (five in total). I've only been able to last 2 years, at best, in any position I've had. i'm a horrible combination of always being the lowest performer and being the least liked socially as well. i've been called stupid, retarded to my face, and had doors slammed in my face (that happened twice at two different jobs). it sucks to always be at the bottom of the pecking order, always, even among "friends". meanwhile, all the people i know from high school are succeeding and constantly getting promotions, while i'll likely never be able to hold down a job. i'm 31 and i never thought my low iq would be the driving cause of my suicide.
even if i manage to trick a girl into being with me, they'll quickly find out how fucking stupid i am, just like everyone else in my life has. my low iq will scare them away so quick it would have my dumb brain spinning. i couldn't betabux, even if i wanted to.
i feel like i'm barely able to play 1D checkers while everyone else is able to play 5D chess.
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