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I am not actually a genetic incel. My parents were just really fucked up in the brain. They sold drugs, hang out with psychopathic criminals, always had cops on their asses. They ended up in jail at some point. This caused me to have a very negative picture of the world. I hated everyone. I thought if society is just leaving me here to rot and die then fuck them and let them rot and die too. Now I am 36 and my feelings of hate have been replaced by something you could call some sort of indifference. Life is fucked up but it has been fucked up for so long I have gotten used to it. There are not many emotions connected with my worldview anymore. For the most part everything feels "neutral" to me.
The reason I am telling you this is in order to understand what I am about to say you must understand where I am coming from. I am not a genetic incel in the actual sense of the term. I am an incel because when I hit puberty I was very scared of the entire world. I was scared of people and how they would act. I was scared of women and how it would feel to be rejected. Then in addition to that I was suffering from acne.
I soon realized the girls would never be interested in me. I was a joke for them. They used me for copying homework. They were making jokes about me being shy and never having a girlfriend. When I had a driver's license they also used me as a free ride.
So I thought since I would never have any chance with them I could just as well give a fuck about my looks and started eating a lot. I got really fat and this caused me to be even more unattractive. I was rejected even more and soon felt totally worthless. I started to believe that women were very shallow and not really willing to look behind the surface. But the usual normie talk got me to question this again and again...
That was until I got 30 years old. At this age I questioned my impression of females for one more final time. I started losing weight and walking each day until I had lost almost 50 kg of weight. Then one day when I was kind of frustrated I went to a store to buy a sixpack of beer. When I got back to the parking lot I saw this young woman that gave me quite an unambiguous smile I was actually looking again to make sure. It was a smile I had never seen before. It was not one of those "hey, nice to meet you" smiles that people give you every day. It was clear that she wanted me to talk to her. Of course I did not have the balls to talk to her but this was not the last time women were smiling like that. It happened a lot. I used to be invisible for women. Now all of a sudden they were taking note of my existence.
Now I must add that at this time I had been a loner staying at home for 10 years. And when I say staying at home for 10 years it means I literally only left the house once in a month to buy food. I had NO social life. Nothing at all. I had a home job which was going worse and worse. I realized I was about to go broke. I had nobody. No friends, no family. Just simply nothing. I was depressed and suicidal. I was good looking but still socially awkward and a typical "loser".
With this mindset I started to go on dates thinking my weight loss would guarantee success for me. But these women were of course not attracted. Women smell loners ten miles against the wind. They smeel guys being broke ten miles against the wind. As usual they turned me down sometimes laughing at me. The entire experience showed me that I was always right about women. They ARE shallow and they do not look behind the surface. They don't give a fuck about your potential. They wait until you have gotten it all straigth and then they come to you in order to feast. That is what they are programmed to do by nature.
So I regained the entire weight at that point out of frustration.
Over the last 6 years I managed to get my life back under control. I now have a well paying job. It was a very hard struggle to get there. I have friends. I have stuff to do in my free time. I am outside of the house nearly all the time. Many people here know me now.
But one thing has remained. I previously said "For the most part everything feels neutral to me.". There is one exception to this. I have a strong desire to take revenge. And I have an idea how I could do this. If I lost weight again and did sports and worked out and got good clothes then I am quite confident that now, given the new circumstances I would manage to get to a point where I would be attractive to women. Because now my life is completely different. For example I would not be needy anymore. If a bitch is not interested in me then fuck her...look for another one until it works. I am not broke anymore. I can afford a car to drive to a date. I can afford good clothing. I have a thousand times more self esteem now.
Don't get me wrong... I am not talking about a relationship. I am talking about finding bitches to exploit for my pleasure and then kick them in the butt. I am not interested in a relationship with one of those gold diggers anymore. I want to make them feel like I felt. I want to make them feel rejected and thrown in the trash.
I think I will go through with the plan and I am considering to post updates about my progress in this thread and then once I get to the point where my potential fully unfolds to a point where women are attracted by me I could post updates and let everyone here enjoy my experiences.
What do you guys think about this idea? Becoming a chad in order to take sweet revenge.
The reason I am telling you this is in order to understand what I am about to say you must understand where I am coming from. I am not a genetic incel in the actual sense of the term. I am an incel because when I hit puberty I was very scared of the entire world. I was scared of people and how they would act. I was scared of women and how it would feel to be rejected. Then in addition to that I was suffering from acne.
I soon realized the girls would never be interested in me. I was a joke for them. They used me for copying homework. They were making jokes about me being shy and never having a girlfriend. When I had a driver's license they also used me as a free ride.
So I thought since I would never have any chance with them I could just as well give a fuck about my looks and started eating a lot. I got really fat and this caused me to be even more unattractive. I was rejected even more and soon felt totally worthless. I started to believe that women were very shallow and not really willing to look behind the surface. But the usual normie talk got me to question this again and again...
That was until I got 30 years old. At this age I questioned my impression of females for one more final time. I started losing weight and walking each day until I had lost almost 50 kg of weight. Then one day when I was kind of frustrated I went to a store to buy a sixpack of beer. When I got back to the parking lot I saw this young woman that gave me quite an unambiguous smile I was actually looking again to make sure. It was a smile I had never seen before. It was not one of those "hey, nice to meet you" smiles that people give you every day. It was clear that she wanted me to talk to her. Of course I did not have the balls to talk to her but this was not the last time women were smiling like that. It happened a lot. I used to be invisible for women. Now all of a sudden they were taking note of my existence.
Now I must add that at this time I had been a loner staying at home for 10 years. And when I say staying at home for 10 years it means I literally only left the house once in a month to buy food. I had NO social life. Nothing at all. I had a home job which was going worse and worse. I realized I was about to go broke. I had nobody. No friends, no family. Just simply nothing. I was depressed and suicidal. I was good looking but still socially awkward and a typical "loser".
With this mindset I started to go on dates thinking my weight loss would guarantee success for me. But these women were of course not attracted. Women smell loners ten miles against the wind. They smeel guys being broke ten miles against the wind. As usual they turned me down sometimes laughing at me. The entire experience showed me that I was always right about women. They ARE shallow and they do not look behind the surface. They don't give a fuck about your potential. They wait until you have gotten it all straigth and then they come to you in order to feast. That is what they are programmed to do by nature.
So I regained the entire weight at that point out of frustration.
Over the last 6 years I managed to get my life back under control. I now have a well paying job. It was a very hard struggle to get there. I have friends. I have stuff to do in my free time. I am outside of the house nearly all the time. Many people here know me now.
But one thing has remained. I previously said "For the most part everything feels neutral to me.". There is one exception to this. I have a strong desire to take revenge. And I have an idea how I could do this. If I lost weight again and did sports and worked out and got good clothes then I am quite confident that now, given the new circumstances I would manage to get to a point where I would be attractive to women. Because now my life is completely different. For example I would not be needy anymore. If a bitch is not interested in me then fuck her...look for another one until it works. I am not broke anymore. I can afford a car to drive to a date. I can afford good clothing. I have a thousand times more self esteem now.
Don't get me wrong... I am not talking about a relationship. I am talking about finding bitches to exploit for my pleasure and then kick them in the butt. I am not interested in a relationship with one of those gold diggers anymore. I want to make them feel like I felt. I want to make them feel rejected and thrown in the trash.
I think I will go through with the plan and I am considering to post updates about my progress in this thread and then once I get to the point where my potential fully unfolds to a point where women are attracted by me I could post updates and let everyone here enjoy my experiences.
What do you guys think about this idea? Becoming a chad in order to take sweet revenge.
