Backpill for an hourpill - had a strokepill its overtbh

[The Enforcer]

Logged back in because I saw something and it's been a while. I think my notifications just probably got wiped tbh. Brutal. Still rotting. Sadly still existing

Had a TIA (small stroke) a couple months ago which was funny I guess. At least an indicator that things aren't stagnant. Now I can wait for the big one.

I'd say I hope you all had a good xmas and new years but I know you didn't. Such is "life" for us as rejects. And doing the whole virtue signalling wishful crap just seems pointless and fake to me. I do hope you're all as good as can be though.


I'm so tired

 

[Caichan]

That’s roughpill

 

[Codependency]

I’m glad you’re still with us.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

strokepill its overtbh​

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

any idea what caused it and if it did permanent damage

i have some exposure to cardiac risk due to sleep apnea tbh

 

[The Enforcer]

That’s roughpill

it's over

 

[The Enforcer]

I’m glad you’re still with us.

It's nice to still see people I know. Silver lining to existing

 

[The Enforcer]

any idea what caused it and if it did permanent damage

i have some exposure to cardiac risk due to sleep apnea tbh

Probably just years of substances I guess. I'm not sure if there's anything permanent, nor do I care though jfl.

 

[Roastie Crusher]

Welcome back Mr. E.

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[The Enforcer]

Welcome back Mr. E.

View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fJuapp9SORA

Sup Nigga

 

[Codependency]

Is it cirrhosis or cancer that’s doing this to you?

 

[The Enforcer]

Is it cirrhosis or cancer that’s doing this to you?

The stroke? I've no idea. They asked me to go back to get tests done but naturally, as I do every time, I didn't bother because I don't care. The hours it would take me to go there, wait, get tests done, and get back are hours I could spend drinking and jerking off.

Not worth it just to satisfy some minor curiosity. I imagine it's just the years of substances.

 

[Grodd]

Brutal welcome back man

 

[Codependency]

The stroke? I've no idea. They asked me to go back to get tests done but naturally, as I do every time, I didn't bother because I don't care. The hours it would take me to go there, wait, get tests done, and get back are hours I could spend drinking and jerking off.

Not worth it just to satisfy some minor curiosity. I imagine it's just the years of substances.

I mean your terminal illness in general brother?

 

[The Enforcer]

Brutal welcome back man

typilled

 

[The Enforcer]

I mean your terminal illness in general brother?

I've sadly never been told i'm terminal. But they've told me on a few occasions they expect me to die soon if I keep doing what I'm doing. They said the same shit ages ago. "muh you'll be dead in 2 years if you keep this up"... Well it's been two years and where was the death I was promised?

All they give me are these useless pamphlet things to "get help" or whatever. I just use the material as roaches for my joints.

 

[Caesercel]

You should get a brain scan

 

[The Scarlet Prince]

This world loathes us. It was that way when we were born and it will continue to be for the rest of our miserable existences. I wish I could say something to you that would help, but I know there's nothing. Your reality is one that most of us will share.

 

[AutisticMonstrosity]

I've sadly never been told i'm terminal.

sadly? if you want to die, why you don't die already? why not kill yourself?

 

[SlayerSlayer]

Do you have to pay?

 

[ColderManTruce]

I'm so tired

 

[The Enforcer]

You should get a brain scan

I've no reason too. Just a waste of time tbh. It would be pointless. Cuts into my drinking hours

 

[The Enforcer]

This world loathes us. It was that way when we were born and it will continue to be for the rest of our miserable existences. I wish I could say something to you that would help, but I know there's nothing. Your reality is one that most of us will share.

Indeed. It's over for many of us. Society is happy that we suffer.

 

[The Enforcer]

sadly? if you want to die, why you don't die already? why not kill yourself?

My last and only attempt didn't really go to plan. I don't consider myself actively suicidal since. Although I'm still waiting on it. To have something terminal would remove any responsibility and also be reassuring

 

[The Enforcer]

Do you have to pay?

For hospital shit? No. In fact in the days after I bought some bottles of Remy Martin and Highland park to celebrate

 

[Pancakecel]

You're still around, glad to see

 

[Autist]

Before you leave, don't forget to give the normies a gift

 

[Caesercel]

I've no reason too. Just a waste of time tbh. It would be pointless. Cuts into my drinking hours

Look my subordinate got a stroke. He got a brain scan and they found a small clot. They could remove it with medication. But if it was allowed to grow surgery would've become necessary.

That's why I'm telling you to get it checked

 

[EcstasyCel]

Made a thread about this as well, if a single monster energy one-shots me I truly deserve to be a rotting corpse.

 

[The Judge]

Welcome back, friend. How are you feeling now? Any better?

Hopefully you do not suffer any more in the future. While death is a mercy for any of us, what worries me is the fact that a stroke can leave you incapable of functioning properly.

 

[AutisticMonstrosity]

My last and only attempt didn't really go to plan. I don't consider myself actively suicidal since. Although I'm still waiting on it. To have something terminal would remove any responsibility and also be reassuring

how it failed? did you sustain any permanent injuries?

why did you go to hospital because of the stroke? because you still wanted to live when the emergency hit?

 

[The Enforcer]

Look my subordinate got a stroke. He got a brain scan and they found a small clot. They could remove it with medication. But if it was allowed to grow surgery would've become necessary.

That's why I'm telling you to get it checked

I have no incentive to take measures to increase my lifespan though. if it takes me out, that's just a bonus

 

[The Enforcer]

Made a thread about this as well, if a single monster energy one-shots me I truly deserve to be a rotting corpse.

Energy drinksme tbh

 

[VanGobbel]

Good luck bud take care of uself

 

[The Enforcer]

Welcome back, friend. How are you feeling now? Any better?

Hopefully you do not suffer any more in the future. While death is a mercy for any of us, what worries me is the fact that a stroke can leave you incapable of functioning properly.

I feel the same as i always do tbh. like shit jfl.

Would be brutal to be a vegetablepill but tbh. nobody cares about me or would notice my absence. so I'd likely only have to wait a couple days before i died anyway.

 

[The Enforcer]

how it failed? did you sustain any permanent injuries?

why did you go to hospital because of the stroke? because you still wanted to live when the emergency hit?

Another example of the hospital cheating me out of a clean death I guess. I don't think I've anything lasting from it but i was in a brief coma and my legs were pretty fucked up for a couple months. I've since learned that jumping into a motorway isn't a solid rope plan.

As for the stroke. I didn't willingly go to the hospital for it. I was at a pub apparently ordering a drink. probably trying to empty all of their spirits again. the pub called the ambulance. I don't really recall those moments though. I left the hospital as early as I could. they have no information that's useful to me and if they're not serving drinks and heroin, I've no reason to stick around.

 

[The Enforcer]

Good luck bud take care of uself

ive got plenty of gin to drink so i should be fine

 

[poorenglishcel]

Sorry man

 

[The Enforcer]

Sorry man

No need tbh. that's just existence as a reject. nothing good comes of it

 

[Caesercel]

I have no incentive to take measures to increase my lifespan though. if it takes me out, that's just a bonus

Bruh

 

[The Enforcer]

Bruh

It's true though. I don't take measures to increase my likelihood of survival anymore. hospitals are useless to me.

The only good they do me is that the ethanol drips or benzos they have to give me to stop me having seizures from alcohol withdrawals, nuke hangovers.

Why throw away a potential golden ticket

 

[The Enforcer]

You're still around, glad to see

ty hope all is good

 

[The Enforcer]

Before you leave, don't forget to give the normies a gift

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I've already left them several in the form of aiding research etc. Stuff that proves normies wrong. So they'll forever seethe over these papers/podcasts etc