What eases the pain slightly is that I know for sure that I did absolutely everything I could have done during my teens/early 20s to become attractive to women and in the end absolutely all my efforts were completely wasted and didn´t make the slightest bit of difference. I can relate to absolutely everything about the blackpill since I have experienced it all my life.
Life has been nothing but misery and pain for me, so if extreme plastic surgery, roids and trying to find a wife form a poor country doesn´t work out I can finally allow myself to rope in peace.
Ironically the only thing keeping me alive right now is the thought that I can finally commit suicide in the next year or two if I don´t ascend. The thought of death is the only thing that eases my depressiona a bit. I want to go out with a bang though if you know what I mean.
Life has been nothing but misery and pain for me, so if extreme plastic surgery, roids and trying to find a wife form a poor country doesn´t work out I can finally allow myself to rope in peace.
Ironically the only thing keeping me alive right now is the thought that I can finally commit suicide in the next year or two if I don´t ascend. The thought of death is the only thing that eases my depressiona a bit. I want to go out with a bang though if you know what I mean.
