Blackpill At no point in my life have I ever been "normie"

[VirginAutistManlet]

The feelings I have with the Blackpill, well they're very familiar, they're the same feelings I had as a really young kid from my first memories, even then I already knew there was something very different about how I saw the world and how my brain processed the world.

I don't mean in an edgy-master kind of way, I mean that I could tell that there were different types of people, but even so, all these different people still had some core things in common that I just did not have, and I had no way of explaining this other than just assuming it was my problem, bad luck, or just that it was over and I'd never have that core-normieness that all normies (regardless of their differences) share.

I still remember spending many days in my childhood just sitting by myself in my own head with millions of thoughts running through my brain, trying to understand how normies lived life, and I just couldn't understand it, the things they did, the things they said, they way they treated each other, their common interests, their desires, their goals, I just didn't get it, I never did, and even at 30+ I still don't. As I grew older I started to understand some of the point of how the normie functioned, mainly from the point that normies do these things in order to gain social power and resources in order to gain power and mobility in society, but it seemed to me like the normie does this without actually thinking about that, they do all of it automatically, perhaps this is just a NT thing, to be attracted to things and do things that will bring you social power and resources, which is why normies ( no matter how different they are) all tend to have all of the same goals.

The closet thing thats come to me understanding the world around me is the Black-Pill, even the Red-Pill for me is normie as fuck. Sometimes I wonder if this is just autism, and that it's easily explained by that, but I don't know, it seems like autistic Chads still seem to have pretty damn normie lives. It seems a lot of you guys were delusional normies at first, but slowly transitioned to the BlackPill kind of thinking.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

same here, probably isolation and family enmeshment cause this.
being isolated and thinking too much about 'serious matters' at a young age is very bad, makes it hard to relate to your peers. and it all snowballs from there.
a family that's cocooning and isolating itself and sharing serious problems with you can give you a really bad start.
from there society and social science says that you can still fight it and win big, but they only check your financial and intellectual achievements, not that you've actually integrated into society. to them it's all good if you're autoerotically asphyxiating in a basement, so long as you have a good salary.

 

[tulasdanslos]

autistic Chads still seem to have pretty damn normie lives.

True, the highest tier of looks autist I met has a gf, and the fat tall autist also got some pussy IIRC. It's all looks.

Being diagnosed with autism was a cathartic moment tbh. Right then I realized that I hadn't done anything wrong, that it was not my fault that I was excluded but it was inevitable.

 

[VirginAutistManlet]

same here, probably isolation and family enmeshment cause this.
being isolated and thinking too much about 'serious matters' at a young age is very bad, makes it hard to relate to your peers. and it all snowballs from there.
a family that's cocooning and isolating itself and sharing serious problems with you can give you a really bad start.
from there society and social science says that you can still fight it and win big, but they only check your financial and intellectual achievements, not that you've actually integrated into society. to them it's all good if you're autoerotically asphyxiating in a basement, so long as you have a good salary.

My family is still together, parents still married, but they don't have a normal relationship, beta father who never really spoke to me or taught me anything, was focused on doing his own thing. Also having a highly neurotic mother that was/is OCD about finances, cleanliness, and the smallest of issues being too overwhelming for her to deal with, my dad didn't care about anything, and anytime my mum had to deal with something she just didn't want to deal with it and basically said to stop complaining, get over it, etc, because its too stressful for her to deal with.

I didn't get any autism diagnosis until I started going to Psychologists in my late 20s, my parents never bothered to take me as a kid, any kind of inconvenience to them just caused them to much "stress" to deal with, so their parenting was more of a hands off provider role, just do your own thing, don't complain and just develop into a functioning adult by yourself, with no help, advice, assistance, tips, knowledge, etc.

I really don't think my parents prepared me for the real world tbh.

 

[nxdismycope]

 

[VirginAutistManlet]

True, the highest tier of looks autist I met has a gf, and the fat tall autist also got some pussy IIRC. It's all looks.

Being diagnosed with autism was a cathartic moment tbh. Right then I realized that I hadn't done anything wrong, that it was not my fault that I was excluded but it was inevitable.

The autism diagnosis for me was the same feeling, but I think it made more depressed, at least before I just tell myself "just gotta do better" but knowing you have autism is like, well, you know you'll never do good enough, and even if you do, you'll never be able to maintain whats good enough, because it just doesn't work that way when you don't have a normal functioning brain.

 

[investigatorcel]

I still remember spending many days in my childhood just sitting by myself in my own head with millions of thoughts running through my brain

Same here bro
Very sad

 

[wasted12years]

I've had normie friends but i never fit in so they abandoned me. Most normies are fake, pretending to be nice, they're actually dicks.

 

[Napoleon de Nascar]

Failed low tier normie after maxxings - highest achievemment, and it wast at 25, when "too old" for teen girls

 

[Deleted member 15737]

Social isolation is probably the cause of most of our mental health issues but we were socially isolated due to our appearance and abnormal interests as a kid.

I loved vintage electronics and taught myself how to fix them while everyone else was out socializing and having fun, they never invited me anyway. Now I’m a ugly, diseased, social dunce and not much I can do to change it now that I’m nearly 23 years old. I’m also autistic and hate to be touched.

 

[TheRealChincel]

I would say that as a kid, I felt like a kid, it was when I became a teenager that my behavior really started to deviate from that of my peers (pretty sure it was just a coincidence that my rejections came right before this time)

 

[ihaveno1]

same, last time i felt like a normie was in pre-school when i was 3-4

 

[Mugcuck]

You can only be a normie if other normies accept you as one. I doubt many people here could pull that off, even if they wanted it.

 

[Deleted member 18912]

Same...
Being ostracized since by the people around me at an early age was not what i expected as a kid.
But well...
That´s that.

 

[Deleted member 18214]

Just think of normies as animals. Problem solved.

 

[StaroRavager]

I always tried to be a normie but everyone saw fit to “put me in my place” whenever they could. I could never relate to them but at the same time I wanted to be a part of the group. Eventually I realized that I would never fufil my basic desires