I started to think about suicide. I have been to a therapist couple of times and didn't directly tell I am an incel because for some reason I am still too shy to accept and admit this but I told how lonely, have zero friends and no girlfriend and asked for advice to meet people. She suggested many useless advices and she even suggested me to go to church and meet old people because they are more friendly. I was like what? I am not even 30 you stupid fuck. She was of course aware that I am lacking relationships with my age group. I even thought that she was not serious and making fun of me secretly by saying such useless advice but then I thought she is professional and would not do that. I was so confused. Therapists seem to be useless and just waste my time. I cannot take this life anymore. I am studying at a university for master's and almost about to graduate if I complete few last courses but everything started to look meaningless. I know a person which is my neighbour, drop out of highschool, unemployed and has a wife currently and they are waiting for a baby. They will have their child in about couple of monhts. The guy dated many girls and just settled with this last girl in only few months of dating. He is not even handsome, just looks like a wife beater alcoholic weirdo but definitely has masculine face characteristics. It seems that we have nothing to do to change our destiny. I am not even willing to looksmaxing through surgery because it is expensive and sometimes risky. I think it is over for me. Seriously what is the point of all of these? Such as getting a degree, getting a wage to live a lonely miserable life and suffer many years. It is just a matter of courage from now on and doing that last thing to end this life.
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