Tension
Worthless.
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Like there's some force or something, that is beyond our control, that makes it so that we have to have the worst luck possible, that we are forbidden from being happy, that our entire existence revolves around suffering and being nothing more than punching bags for others. Ever feel that way?
For me it ranges from seemingly small, not-so-noteworthy situations (ie shoelaces getting untied at stupid moments when you can't stop to fix them), all the way to life-changing, traumatic experiences (lifelong bullying and social exclusion from peers). Even just today in class, everyone had to complete a task on the computers, and out of everyone in the entire classroom, it was my computer that had a problem where it was unable to launch the software needed to do the work, so I had to move to another computer. I was the one who had to be cursed with bad luck. Everything has to go wrong for me; things just never work in my favour. All the kids get handed an apple to eat? Mine's the only one that's all gross, bruised and mostly inedible. (That really happened to me once as a kid). I get a brand new expensive laptop as a gift for my birthday? That breaks down and stops working completely a month later (that happened to me too).
It's like every time I ever come marginally close to having good luck, life just snatches it away from me and yells: "Ha! That'll never be for you!"
I just can't win in this world...
For me it ranges from seemingly small, not-so-noteworthy situations (ie shoelaces getting untied at stupid moments when you can't stop to fix them), all the way to life-changing, traumatic experiences (lifelong bullying and social exclusion from peers). Even just today in class, everyone had to complete a task on the computers, and out of everyone in the entire classroom, it was my computer that had a problem where it was unable to launch the software needed to do the work, so I had to move to another computer. I was the one who had to be cursed with bad luck. Everything has to go wrong for me; things just never work in my favour. All the kids get handed an apple to eat? Mine's the only one that's all gross, bruised and mostly inedible. (That really happened to me once as a kid). I get a brand new expensive laptop as a gift for my birthday? That breaks down and stops working completely a month later (that happened to me too).
It's like every time I ever come marginally close to having good luck, life just snatches it away from me and yells: "Ha! That'll never be for you!"
I just can't win in this world...