SuicideFuel Anyone else always thinks that someone will call you ugly in the middle of a conversation?

[Inceldom Victim]

I always worry about the person i'm talking to if they think I'm ugly or not. I'm not even focused on the conversation, I just worry about what they think about my face and when I'm on the bus/ train I absolutely cannot look down and go on my phone, my submental area literally goes into my neck if I do, my entire mandible literally disappears(I reflected my iPad in a mirror while mimicking looking down on phone position and it was brutal)

I try to angle myself like this

I tense my neck, suck in my cheeks, jaw jut, squint very slightly, and since I usually sit by a window I tilt my head slightly toward the window to enhance my underdeveloped mandible and I pray to god that passerby will just see a regular subhuman and not whatever the fuck I actually developed into.

While not sitting down, when walking past someone or standing still I try to do this

I would tilt my head upwards while doing everything I would do while sitting down but tense my neck twice as hard and try to stretch out my neck to compensate for my subhuman height.

While maintaining this posture I would occasionally catch a glimpse of my reflection from a window and see that I am genetic garbage, how thin my neck looks, weak my chin is, how round head looks, how disgusting I look, how bad my proportions are.....

Fate has been too cruel for actual subhumans like me

 

[Postmaxxercel50k]

People say it to me at the start of the conversation

 

[Inceldom Victim]

People say it to me at the start of the conversation

I know that they think I'm ugly but I always wonder if they will say it as well