Serious Anybody else just bury their emotions every single day?

[Getlooksordie]

I legit haven´t cried since I was like 8 years old, I´m almost 30 now. I probably haven´t even genuinly laughed since i was 12.

In my job I have to smile and act nice all the time. I will literally talk to someone on autopilot, but my mind will be somewhere completely else. I will be talking about the weather or some shit, but in my mind I fantasize about hanging myself in my closet or I will go through all the times I was harshly rejected and saw chads with their hot gfs having the time of their lives. Inside I´m under immense pain every single day, but on the outside I will be cracking jokes, being high energy and laughing with normies.

What triggers me is seeing hot women and what triggers me even more is hot women with ugly guys (thankfully I almost never see that). It literally hurts as much as setting myself on fire and having flames all over my body and burning alive when I see that.

Sometimes the pain is so much that I will punch against a brickwall as hard as I can, just to have it hurt somewhere else for a change. I´ve broken my hand multiple times doing this.

Anybody else feel like this?

 

[acnescarcel]

life sux

 

[Anger]

I've lost the ability to feel emotions, I'm totally numb right now

 

[SadRealistcel]

yup hiding all my emotions until they explode

 

[Mickeyonacid]

yup hiding all my emotions until they explode

 

[Spite]

I've lost the ability to feel emotions, I'm totally numb right now

Cope

 

[NEETAndTidy]

I go from completely and utterly numb to depressed miserible wreck. 98% of the time I'm just numb though

 

[Anger]

Cope

How is this cope?

 

[FiveFourManlet]

same

 

[_wifebeater_]

 

[Ritalincel]

Yes bro

 

[Spite]

How is this cope?

What mental illness have you been diagnosed with that effects your ability to feel emotions? Your emotions haven't gone anywhere, you're just coping with the pain.

 

[PheneZ]

guys guys don't you know that foids love guys who are in touch with their emotions???? We would all be swimming in a giant pool of pussy if just cried all the time.

 

[Deleted member 677]

I have yet to cry over inceldom. I dread the day it happens.

 

[Gyros_Pretcel]

Not anymore I am just dead inside, but I used to.

 

[Deleted member 677]

swimming in a giant pool of pussy

Damn that made me horny.

 

[PheneZ]

Damn that made me horny.

Just gotta cry bro that's the key.

 

[Deleted member 677]

Just gotta cry bro that's the key.

Fuck, this feeling brings me back to my this thread. https://incels.is/threads/i-want-to-see-smell-and-touch-a-vagina.16524/

 

[Jockcel]

My only emotion is feeling empty.

 

[Deleted member 7438]

I had a relapse yesterday of habits that got me locked up. I get overemotional when I see certain types of videos and uncontrollably self-insert myself to a point where I'll start arguing with shit that isn't real. I think it might be PTSD, but I'm not sure 100%.

Socially I can actually be genuinely nice a sociable, but behind the scenes I try to distance myself to avoid the above.

 

[TheHaircutBrother]

Incel males should bury their emotions. Emotions are only for women anyway