I dont know man
I always tell myself its fine, but i think its not
Somehow the urge to just go out of the door and into the nearest forest always comes up
Not to rope, but more to just leave everything behind, this whole society
My life sucks, like right now, I cant sleep, i have to go work in like 3 hours, sit there for 9 hours, ill come home, eat, sleep, wake up, read some post on here, watch a few youtube videos and repeat
On the weekend, ill go out, only to spend my money, and get rejected by girls, while my friends act passive aggressively towards me, and not even a hug i might get from a girl, because she goes home or so, will help fill this intense void i have in my soul
Im searching for something, and i cant find it
My whole life was fucked anyway, im sitting here, telling myself everything is ok, because i have a job, and a car
Great, like i need that, when i have an urge i cant describe, which basically eats me from the inside, and i have no idea how to fill that void that exists in me
I just watched some of those simpson aesthetic songs on youtube, and i dont know, they give me feelings, of times i never had but i know that those feelings are real. You can have them everyday when you live a normal life. Its like Bart sitting by a lake with a girl, looking at the sunset
And i get this feeling, its so fucking true, like i know, normal people do that and have that, when some good looking teen has his first girlfriend and sits by a lake, holding hands, with his cute girlfriend, they feel love, he smells her hair, because the warm air keeps blowing across the lake in his direction, he looks at her, she smiles, and the sun sets, while they kiss, and tell each other that they are in love
I know its sound cliche but what are we ? We have never expierenced stuff like that, and especially in todays society its harder and harder to have those true emotions and feelings. We are so far away from a life like it was intended by nature, its insane
We go to work, in order to make money for other people, and then drive home just to lock us up in a small room while watching other people on tv that live their life