Schizoid personality disorder is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency toward a solitary or sheltered lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness, detachment, and apathy. (from wikipedia)
I have always been alone and been excluded from groups ever since I was a little kid. I don't see the point of making a connection with a group. It always feels like I stand out and everyone looks at me like an outsider. Every recess at school, up until high school was spent walking alone in the school's garden, never playing or talking to anyone else.
Fast forward to today, I always do my plans alone. I go to cities alone, I walk alone and I don't feel like I should be doing it with someone else. I can feel people looking at me in weird ways when I sit in a restaurant or a cafe alone and quite but I don't feel like this is a problem. It literally is impossible for me to see the importance of forming bonds with people. I do talk to other people I have to encounter multiple times so they don't think I am weird (though this never works the way I planned, they always think that I am weird) but other than that I spend the day alone without feeling the need to interact with anyone.
I have always been alone and been excluded from groups ever since I was a little kid. I don't see the point of making a connection with a group. It always feels like I stand out and everyone looks at me like an outsider. Every recess at school, up until high school was spent walking alone in the school's garden, never playing or talking to anyone else.
Fast forward to today, I always do my plans alone. I go to cities alone, I walk alone and I don't feel like I should be doing it with someone else. I can feel people looking at me in weird ways when I sit in a restaurant or a cafe alone and quite but I don't feel like this is a problem. It literally is impossible for me to see the importance of forming bonds with people. I do talk to other people I have to encounter multiple times so they don't think I am weird (though this never works the way I planned, they always think that I am weird) but other than that I spend the day alone without feeling the need to interact with anyone.
