You sound like those people who say”just trust the process bro!”
Fucking kek i was believer i was religon coping too until eventually i was aware how retarded that was expecting hear a voice in your head lmao only people who hear voices in their heads are classified as schizos i mean unless youre one of them lol i tried worshipping satan too i had a satan phase but he didnt seemed to exist at all i wasnt “possessed” or anything nothing fucking changed really i would just rot in my room for waiting for something interesting nope nothing i tried doing something about it had a redpill phase which gave me some hope really tried cold approaching nothing i tried “touching grass” nothing no result and i was just constantly frustrated with what the fuck is wrong what am i doing wrong until i found dbdr’s and savvyguy’s channel and it explained so much to me how much i could relate to these people and i realize i just setup to be fucked over with if god truly exist if there is a god he hated me from the start to make a human this ugly in god’s “eyes” and then go to hell because i throw away my life due to how i dislike how i am? Pretty fucking retarded if you ask me it’s like i serve you a plate of moldy food and you throw it away because it tastes like shit and then i say “oh well you’re going to prison because uhh you’re an ungrateful sack of shit”it sounds dumb sure some people have it worse than others but it doesn’t mean that i wouldn’t want to be like prime dicaprio or brad pitt just for a fucking day atleast but at the end of the day it just seems by the way he created me he basically told me a big fuck you while he creates another person is better than me in every single fucking way lmao
