Alone75
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- Nov 16, 2017
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It's my 47th birthday today, still incel and life is going nowhere in other ways as I'm unemployed again and the future doesn't look bright. I know I should have paid a hooker to take my virginity by now, but I have a lot of anxiety around it and the longer I left it the worst I felt. I also thought maybe I just need to try online dating and tinder more, but that got me nowhere I ended up feeling very depressed and frustrated.
If I had friends to see and a social life, that would help, but it didn't do much for me in my teens and 20s going to pubs/clubs and it was all just a looks and popularity competition and I wish I had stayed in watching TV most times, instead of staggering home drunk and alone.
I don't know what to do, I just want to be left alone really and cope the best I can with music, tv series and movies although it's just used so I'm not just lying on my bed or playing games on my PC or phone. What the hell else can I do, go for walks on nature trails? I've done that, I don't have an interest in much, I hate this life and wish things were better but they will never get better for me I know.
If I had friends to see and a social life, that would help, but it didn't do much for me in my teens and 20s going to pubs/clubs and it was all just a looks and popularity competition and I wish I had stayed in watching TV most times, instead of staggering home drunk and alone.
I don't know what to do, I just want to be left alone really and cope the best I can with music, tv series and movies although it's just used so I'm not just lying on my bed or playing games on my PC or phone. What the hell else can I do, go for walks on nature trails? I've done that, I don't have an interest in much, I hate this life and wish things were better but they will never get better for me I know.