An update on my mental state

[no love found]

Recently I took a three week break to focus on my mental health, and I came back a week or two ago.

(A while ago I also left for a month to improve and try to not be an incel.)

And my mental health has improved a little bit.

But instead of being 100% miserable, I’m just 70% unhappy.

My life, my mental state didn’t become better, it just became less bad.

Also in this time I dropped out of my Freshman year and decided to join the military. I’m leaving this summer for that.

So I’m glad I figured out my life a little bit.

But instead of hating life I just dislike it now.

In a lot of ways I’m still lacking. My physique is not as good as the other guys in the locker room. I’m still socially awkward. (I think…)

And of course I am ignored by the other gender.

When I asked for the temp ban, I thought in three weeks I could fix my life and mental health. But no. Well hey, at least my life is semi tolerable and I don’t want to kill myself anymore.

I think this shows me something about myself. I’m prone to magical thinking. Like thinking I can fix everything in three weeks.

But I have come to two possibilities.

Either one: I will always be unhappy to a certain, variable extent, or two: improvement and ascension is possible, it’s just painfully slow.

Maybe I just need to improoove more this spring. But will ever be enough for society? I’m starting to not know the answer to that question.

Unsubstantiated hope, due to effort, is still better than substantiated despair due to giving up. Right?

 

[Gen.SchizoAfricanus]

Hey you got somewhere bro, it's 100% miserable to Less Bad is significant improvement and unfortunately you're right it will be painfully slow to the point you will wanna give up because you think "By the time i've ascended i'll be too bitter so whats the point" the point bein its better to be bitter while fit an healthy then down in the dumps an in bad physical health.

Atleast you will have the option should you chose to take it out on a low tier foid. You're doin great progress so far man and Joining the military is a Giant step forward that i believe will unlock alot of your potential. Just wait till you get to basic, I promise you will meet atleast 1 other guy with the same build as you. Just keep working out in prep and train for endurance.

Eventually you get numb and stop giving a fuck about society but it is best you still improve an ascend for your own personal gain, Use society, Milk it an toss it aside like it did to your spirit once you ascend. You got this, You're already ina better position then alot of guys on here, you haven't completely swallowed the doompill so you have a chance to escape. RUN YURI RUN !!

 

[tranny destroyer]

Eventually you get numb

the empty quite nose of my room is more loud than a jet engine. The numb feeling is so empty you don’t even feel real.

 

[Extern]

When I asked for the temp ban, I thought in three weeks I could fix my life and mental health. But no.

I've gone through so many cycles of this Always brutal when the delusion wears off

 

[tranny destroyer]

Femboy Rape.

 

[Gen.SchizoAfricanus]

something something dont knock it till u something

 

[tranny destroyer]

do you know what i do in that moment ? Masturbate to Hentai Femboy Rape Porn while high.

You have to admit this is no way of living for a human, Chad is out there living, we exist to suffer and cope. I have dream but I look at the end of it all and it’s back to the same quite room

 

[Gen.SchizoAfricanus]

You have to admit this is no way of living for a human, Chad is out there living, we exist to suffer and cope. I have dream but I look at the end of it all and it’s back to the same quite room

this will sound like cope but I feel like chad isn't as happy as they look either its a matter of perspective, I'm not gonna say same some retarded shit like the rich aren't really happy or some dumb shit and i'm in the same position as you but recently came to the conclusion that life is a fake soap opera , everything is bullshit, we are only scared of laws because we mutually agree to arrest people that break the social agreement. Reality is more like a game, We have been brainwashed by our parents to play by a confining set of rules, You and I are good law abiding citizens IRL , when we go to work, Follow the rules of the road, Pay Taxes, We're just going along with these preconditioned set of rules.

the chads an especially the degen criminals are attractive to foids because they break these social preconditioned rules, Its why foids love drug dealers an if their not criminals then they break the rules in some other way whether its what might be sexual harassments coming from an incel would just be called bravado confidence an charisma by chad or they'd get start up money from mommy an daddy to become entrepreneurs and called themselves college drop out rags to riches success story.

Coping is how we deal with being fucked over by our serf minded parents who never broke the rules because they grew up in a time where following the social contract was beneficial to them, Go to school, Find a GF cuz you're about to get a good degree or you worked a high paying Trade straight out of highschool, Get Married, bought a house an could afford to keep the mom at home. We followed those set of rules because our slave minded parents beat us into submission and we got bubkiss to show for it all. We got Fucked over. Plain an simple. The Room is quiet because we haven't collectivized our righteous anger into societal fervor to shake the fabric of society. I'm planning on leaving my room by joining the military I wanna gain real combat experience then go Private, Check out Thinking West on substack, he's got a great list on Books you should start reading NOW. Might as well do something to our benefit while we're stuck in our quiet rooms.

 

[Lunaticcurrycel]

Recently I took a three week break to focus on my mental health, and I came back a week or two ago.

(A while ago I also left for a month to improve and try to not be an incel.)

And my mental health has improved a little bit.

But instead of being 100% miserable, I’m just 70% unhappy.

My life, my mental state didn’t become better, it just became less bad.

Also in this time I dropped out of my Freshman year and decided to join the military. I’m leaving this summer for that.

So I’m glad I figured out my life a little bit.

But instead of hating life I just dislike it now.

In a lot of ways I’m still lacking. My physique is not as good as the other guys in the locker room. I’m still socially awkward. (I think…)

And of course I am ignored by the other gender.

When I asked for the temp ban, I thought in three weeks I could fix my life and mental health. But no. Well hey, at least my life is semi tolerable and I don’t want to kill myself anymore.

I think this shows me something about myself. I’m prone to magical thinking. Like thinking I can fix everything in three weeks.

But I have come to two possibilities.

Either one: I will always be unhappy to a certain, variable extent, or two: improvement and ascension is possible, it’s just painfully slow.

Maybe I just need to improoove more this spring. But will ever be enough for society? I’m starting to not know the answer to that question.

Unsubstantiated hope, due to effort, is still better than substantiated despair due to giving up. Right?

My mother tried to slap me rn and I am bleeding hand cause i stopped it and her bangles broke fml. I am on my breaking point. My latest update

 

[Sir Silentium]

Is your mental health better whilst on .is, or off it?

 

[no love found]

Is your mental health better whilst on .is, or off it?

It doesn’t affect it one way or the other. It’s other factors irl that affect it