Yeap i have now problem with my mom
She wants to go woth me in italy and or on sea resort somrwhere i dont want because.. imagine fat 30 oldcel with mom and sister in sea resort hotel on the beach and around hot womans with bikini and chads and stacy s and i would have major more srious depression after this..
Above also i wrote when i was 17 all school went alone with teachers in sea resort city on vacancy and first she did not allow me then she with sister rented room in the same street and she was kind of seperate but was leaving on the same street and watching me.. thats humiliating..
Now several days she is asking to go with her and sister abroad in italy rome or seac resort and i am sayi g i dont want and she does not understand so today when she start again this topic i scream at her and went cusing and told i woukd fucking strangle her woth my bare fucking hands if she does not leaces me alone.. now she is threatening with leaving me on the streets.. and gaslighting and shaming gulting me..
And what way i have? I swaer to god they are forcing me in deeper depression to kill myself or kill somebody.. as soon as i start to thinking about bettering myself tgis kind of shit is startimg..
My mother gave to my lesbian sister more freedom in teens then to me she juat ruined me entirely..