For reference I have a 188 RAADsR score and was diagnosed at 13 (I’m black which has a lower diagnosis rate for autism) I have been in ABA since (21 now) and mask pretty well most of my symptoms are in my inflexible interests, black and white thinking, poor empathy and lack of diversity in tone (I come across happy even inopportune situations). I don’t think I struggle socially with other men but I think women can sense something is “off”? In my education class my classmates (I’m the only guy) treat me like a pet and I fucking hate it. I know they aren’t attracted to me and they make jokes like dating me would be like dating your little brother or like when they are talking about Chads or whatever the fuck they are like “Ashe doesn’t think like that.” Like I’m not a real guy and it boils my piss me to hear about how they let these thugs treat them while they are bullying me for being nice while thinking I don’t notice. I hate them so much. It’s been this way since middle school and I don’t think anyone is gonna want me because they just infantilize me because they sense my autism. Just because I’m retarded doesn’t mean I want to be treated as your pet fag.
