Serious Am feeling ashamed right now

[VλREN]

I know this probably isn’t the best website to post really personal stories but I got nowhere else to communicate with other people.

I don’t wanna get into personal details or anything but exactly a year ago I had to move away from my hometown because my mother almost died.

I just remember feeling anguish and this feeling of uncertainty during the whole time. I literally thought that i would never return to my hometown again and my life was permanently altered.

I went for one last sunset walk and I took some pics and everything felt surreal.

I told myself I’d change and do something with my life, become someone in this world. I don’t mean some great skill mogger or CEO, just a better version of myself. Become someone who isn’t completely miserable and has something to be proud of.

That night I posted about on here and told everyone I needed to get off this website and become someone

Well a full year passed tonight and I haven’t fucking changed at all…..

My mom survived and I moved back into my hometown in January and to be honest I am starting to hate it here and am starting to hate myself for lying to myself like that.

Now am broke and can’t find a job, my old job didn’t rehire me because I waited to long because I am a lazy POS. Am just doing the same shit over and over. Am starting to feel like a prisoner. It’s getting so bad that I actually want to work because of how bored I am with my current life.

Am even starting to hate this website

I don’t know man, it’s like nothing changed at all and I just did the same old autistic bullshit as before. Like I could never really commit to something even with a visit from a grim reality check.

 

[PTSD Marsupials]

Same, brocel

I'm still motivated to game at least

 

[VλREN]

Same, brocel

I'm still motivated to game at least

Am motivated to do nothing

Social isolation has destroyed me and my perception of the world

 

[PTSD Marsupials]

Am motivated to do nothing

Try doing one small thing at a time, don't do whatever you have to do all at once

 

[Bongcel357]

Bro I've told myself to many times I'm gonna get my life together and be a "better person". It never worked out. The last job interview I went to a couple years ago I was thrown out by security for acting too subhumanly and weird after the interviewer (who was a foid, of course) didn't like how I was acting. Now I'm turning 30 in a few months and never had a job because they don't want to hire a freak subhuman like me.

Apparently the job market is brutal even for normies right now though, but it will always be brutal for us, even when it's good for them.

It's brutal out there is what I'm saying, but focus on the fact that you've got a place to live at least. I was a hobo for a few years and it was brutal.

 

[VλREN]

Bro I've told myself to many times I'm gonna get my life together and be a "better person". It never worked out. The last job interview I went to a couple years ago I was thrown out by security for acting too subhumanly and weird after the interviewer (who was a foid, of course) didn't like how I was acting. Now I'm turning 30 in a few months and never had a job because they don't want to hire a freak subhuman like me.

Apparently the job market is brutal even for normies right now though, but it will always be brutal for us, even when it's good for them.

It's brutal out there is what I'm saying, but focus on the fact that you've got a place to live at least. I was a hobo for a few years and it was brutal.

They don’t even interview me, they just Send me emails saying they’re full.

My old job was the closest thing I had to getting a job here and they acted like I was a stranger

 

[Bongcel357]

They don’t even interview me, they just Send me emails saying they’re full.

My old job was the closest thing I had to getting a job here and they acted like I was a stranger

Mogs me for ever having a job.

The brutal truth is that a) jobs are fucking hard to get right now anyway and b) the process of the job interview is primarily to filter out weirdos/freaks/autists/incels. That is the main purpose of them. If you don't act totally normie-like and NT in an interview it's over.

That's my experience, anyway. I would like to work, but employers don't want to hire me because I'm too much of a subhuman in interviews.

After I was thrown out by security for not acting "normal" in my last interview those years ago I've not tried again.

 

[VλREN]

Mogs me for ever having a job.

The brutal truth is that a) jobs are fucking hard to get right now anyway and b) the process of the job interview is primarily to filter out weirdos/freaks/autists/incels. If you don't act totally normie-like and NT in an interview it's over.

That's my experience, anyway. I would like to work, but employers don't want to hire me because I'm too much of a subhuman in interviews.

I had the interview back in October 2022, everyone else was either an illegal or a felon. That’s probably why I only got the job

 

[VλREN]

Around the Same week I made my .is account lol

 

[Bongcel357]

I had the interview back in October 2022, everyone else was either an illegal or a felon. That’s probably why I only got the job

USA I guess? It's a bit harder where I live in the fucking cUcKay.

I literally just want a basic job so I can support myself. That what our governments are always telling us to do. But they don't do anything to help you into getting work. And jobs don't want to hire you because you're weird or autistic or whatever. "You won't fit into the company culture". No shit I won't fit in, does that mean I deserve to die on the streets? Fucking NIGGERS

They just want us to die.

 

[VλREN]

USA I guess? It's a bit harder where I live in the fucking cUcKay.

I literally just want a basic job so I can support myself. That what our governments are always telling us to do. But they don't do anything to help you into getting work. And jobs don't want to hire you because you're weird or autistic or whatever. "You won't fit into the company culture". No shit I won't fit in, does that mean I deserve to die on the streets? Fucking NIGGERS

They just want us to die.

I had Fs in all my classes, My teachers would always mock me “your going to be working at McDonald’s blah blah fuck you” now am like yeah I fucking wish I had a job at McDonalds.

 

[Bongcel357]

Even basic jobs like McDonalds are oversaturated by Indians and Africans, so it's very hard to get a job even in that kind of place. Especially because the fucking Indians only hire their own -- they won't hire a white man like myself.

 

[VλREN]

Even basic jobs like McDonalds are oversaturated by Indians and Africans, so it's very hard to get a job even in that kind of place. Especially because the fucking Indians only hire their own -- they won't hire a white man like myself.

Yeah

Atleast in California the saars just work at fancy tech jobs and leave slop jobs for low class whites or other low level brown invaders

 

[Bongcel357]

I had Fs in all my classes, My teachers would always mock me “your going to be working at McDonald’s blah blah fuck you” now am like yeah I fucking wish I had a job at McDonalds.

Bro fuck that bitch, if goycattle want to eat their McDonalds goyslop whilst the McDonalds corporation makes billions of dollars a year, then McDonalds should pay their workers a wage enough to live on, in my opinion. There's nothing wrong with serving people food at the end of the day.

I got very good grades in school, and went to a good university, but still became a complete loser and failure. So grades really mean nothing as far as I can tell. It all depends on how socially "normal" you are.

 

[VλREN]

Bro fuck that bitch, if goycattle want to eat their McDonalds goyslop whilst the McDonalds corporation makes billions of dollars a year, then McDonalds should pay their workers a wage enough to live on, in my opinion. There's nothing wrong with serving people food at the end of the day.

I got very good grades in school, and went to a good university, but still became a complete loser and failure. So grades really mean nothing as far as I can tell.

Yeah it’s all about momentum and connections

But I really been thinking about Fatalism recently, but I don’t know if that’s more shit just to demotivated me