W
I've always hated how I'm some weird soulless being that doesn't act like other people, such as having hobbies, skills, and being able to interact with others. I've always only been interested in doing dumb shit that can get me in trouble, like in the past I liked breaking windows as a kid. I now just waste time on other low-IQ shit because I'm unable to do anything else that actually requires using your brain due to having a learning disability, autism, and ADHD. If someone were to ask me what I like to do, I wouldn't know what to say and would just ignore them. It would probably help if I was at least into watching football or something so maybe I could appear somewhat normal. It doesn't help that people always criticized me for stuff, but when anyone else does it, it's cool or whatever. Plus, whenever I would talk, I would get ignored, and people would just look at me and then continue talking to someone else. I ended up becoming introverted at 14 years old and no longer wanted to talk to anyone and preferred being by myself. Not really sure why that happened, but it's like my brain just randomly changed into that, but I'm glad it did because I would have wasted even more time trying to fit in with normies and jestering for foids, and then I quickly started getting more and more shy and high inhib as time went on, and now it feels weird to be like this as an adult when it should be the opposite.
