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Esoteric7
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Made the mistake of going outside. I was walking back from somewhere - I can’t remember where. It was sunny, brilliant blue sky, quite warm.
Feeling thirsty, I stopped on the side of an expansive, wide walking path. After some refreshing sips, I looked to my right and a white, blonde toilet was walking up and suddenly locked eyes with me. She looked like this in the same outfit:
Or:
Immediately, I broke eye contact and resumed walking. She had a neutral facial expression. Who knows what the expression would have turned into if I held eye contact.
The blend of exhaustion, thirst, inceldom, and the heat made me subconsciously look at her to seek comfort and refuge.
When we looked at each other I felt overwhelmed. I felt like my body was being electrocuted for doing something very morally wrong. I don’t know why I felt like this. Yes I have social anxiety but this was something different - it felt like I was committing a heinous, unforgivable act that would require my face to be scorched by a thousand suns as a form of punishment.
I can’t even hold eye contact with an attractive female. I only feel comfortable around sub-5 females and men (pause).
Feeling thirsty, I stopped on the side of an expansive, wide walking path. After some refreshing sips, I looked to my right and a white, blonde toilet was walking up and suddenly locked eyes with me. She looked like this in the same outfit:
Or:
Immediately, I broke eye contact and resumed walking. She had a neutral facial expression. Who knows what the expression would have turned into if I held eye contact.
The blend of exhaustion, thirst, inceldom, and the heat made me subconsciously look at her to seek comfort and refuge.
When we looked at each other I felt overwhelmed. I felt like my body was being electrocuted for doing something very morally wrong. I don’t know why I felt like this. Yes I have social anxiety but this was something different - it felt like I was committing a heinous, unforgivable act that would require my face to be scorched by a thousand suns as a form of punishment.
I can’t even hold eye contact with an attractive female. I only feel comfortable around sub-5 females and men (pause).