SuicideFuel About me and my depressive life as an MTN (DNR)

[MTN]

Thanks to everyone who reads this. I'm writing this text drunk and high, just so you know. I'm from Germany.
I'm 18 years old, about 5'7" and MTN. I've been into looksmaxxing for a while, thinking it would save me. I do everything I can right now. I've been taking testosterone since I turned 18 and HGH since I was 17. I have ADHD and get prescribed amphetamines, but I think Im autistic. I'm unemployed and still live with my parents, who are also ND don't like me much, earn well doctor... I'm not low IQ, but that doesn't really help me because I'm ND (I always try to act normal, but people still notice). Sometimes I have suicidal thoughts because of my looks. Today I had another very bad day this has happened too many times, even worse. I went to a club with two friends and approached two Sluts and asked if they might know a girl for me. They just laughed and said, Not a chance. This is just an example of what my life is like. I've often left the club with suicidal thoughts and cried because I felt so bad about getting DNRD.
I really don't know what to do anymore. The only thing that can save me is money. Living as an men is so hard. My sister is 5'3 and HLTB, and she has a 6'5 HTN boyfriend. I'm really close to end it all. Is it really worth improving even more?
I love you all, I feel your suffering, I know many have it even harder. <3

 

[endoftheskies]

Thanks to everyone who reads this. I'm writing this text drunk and high, just so you know. I'm from Germany.
I'm 18 years old, about 5'7" and MTN. I've been into looksmaxxing for a while, thinking it would save me. I do everything I can right now. I've been taking testosterone since I turned 18 and HGH since I was 17. I have ADHD and I get prescribed amphetamines, but I think Im autistic. I'm unemployed and still live with my parents, who are also ND don't like me much, earn well doctor... I'm not low IQ, but that doesn't really help me because I'm ND (I always try to act normal, but people still notice). Sometimes I have suicidal thoughts because of my looks. Today I had another very bad day this has happened too many times, even worse. I went to a club with two ND friends and approached two Sluts and asked if they might know a girl for me. They just laughed and said, Not a chance. This is just an example of what my life is like. I've often left the club with suicidal thoughts and cried because I felt so bad about getting DNRD.
I really don't know what to do anymore. The only thing that can save me is money. Living as an men is so hard. My sister is 5'3 and HLTB, and she has a 6'5 HTN boyfriend. I'm really close to end it all. Is it really worth improving even more?
I love you all, I feel your suffering, I know many have it even harder. <3

Absolutely brootal first post. Welcome to the forum.

 

[ApocalypticKrieg666]

Is it really worth improving even more?

No

 

[Sex-Starved Beast]

It's over, but I wish I was this self-aware at 18 or younger.

 

[Caichan]

I'm really close to end it all

Same

 

[Chirag gupta]

Welcome to the forum, brocel

 

[autisticsoy]

I really am starting to hate short women.

 

[VersoffenerAssi]

I'm from Germany.
I'm 18 years old

Ach Kleiner, verschwinde lieber von hier und komm erst wieder, wenn Du erwachsen bist. Der Laden fickt sonst nur Dein junges Hirn.

 

[VersoffenerAssi]

I'm really close to end it all. Is it really worth improving even more?

Das Problem heutzutage ist, dass wir in einer sexbesessenen Gesellschaft leben und all die ganze Unzucht zur Normalität geworden ist.
Du musst zumindest, bevor Du Dich umbringst*, diese Dinge noch hinterfragen. Ich weiß, dass das für einen 18-jährigen schwer ist. Gerade heutzutage. Denn es ist inzwischen alles viel zu sehr verkommen.

*nicht, dass ich dich dazu auffordern würde. Ganz im Gegenteil. Suizid ist so ziemlich das jämmerlichste, was man tun kann. Extremely cucked.

 

[Diddy]

Why does every zoomer supposedly have ADHD? I bet most of you weren’t actually born with it, but developed ADHD symptoms due to doomscrolling on TikTok and Instagram.

 

[IWWorkER]

Thanks to everyone who reads this. I'm writing this text drunk and high, just so you know. I'm from Germany.
I'm 18 years old, about 5'7" and MTN. I've been into looksmaxxing for a while, thinking it would save me. I do everything I can right now. I've been taking testosterone since I turned 18 and HGH since I was 17. I have ADHD and get prescribed amphetamines, but I think Im autistic. I'm unemployed and still live with my parents, who are also ND don't like me much, earn well doctor... I'm not low IQ, but that doesn't really help me because I'm ND (I always try to act normal, but people still notice). Sometimes I have suicidal thoughts because of my looks. Today I had another very bad day this has happened too many times, even worse. I went to a club with two friends and approached two Sluts and asked if they might know a girl for me. They just laughed and said, Not a chance. This is just an example of what my life is like. I've often left the club with suicidal thoughts and cried because I felt so bad about getting DNRD.
I really don't know what to do anymore. The only thing that can save me is money. Living as an men is so hard. My sister is 5'3 and HLTB, and she has a 6'5 HTN boyfriend. I'm really close to end it all. Is it really worth improving even more?
I love you all, I feel your suffering, I know many have it even harder. <3

Brutal first post.

I went to a club with two friends and approached two Sluts

I can already see some users calling you a fakecel, but it's good that you actually tried, too many larpers never approched anyone or tried anything.

I'm really close to end it all.

I would advise not to, but ultimately it's your choice. Feel free to talk about it to others if you have doubts.

Is it really worth improving even more?

Despite the constant "it's over" repeated here, yes, life get better or worse.
For example, if I suddenly became rich, my life would be much better, even if I were still alone.

I love you all, I feel your suffering, I know many have it even harder. <3

Thanks.

Either way, enjoy your stay, don't take anything too at heart so as to not suffer more than necessary.

 

[Sub5failure]

Strong first post, welcome

 

[B33troot]

Welcome to .is. Good first post.

 

[Truecel Prophet]

Thanks to everyone who reads this. I'm writing this text drunk and high, just so you know. I'm from Germany.
I'm 18 years old, about 5'7" and MTN. I've been into looksmaxxing for a while, thinking it would save me. I do everything I can right now. I've been taking testosterone since I turned 18 and HGH since I was 17. I have ADHD and get prescribed amphetamines, but I think Im autistic. I'm unemployed and still live with my parents, who are also ND don't like me much, earn well doctor... I'm not low IQ, but that doesn't really help me because I'm ND (I always try to act normal, but people still notice). Sometimes I have suicidal thoughts because of my looks. Today I had another very bad day this has happened too many times, even worse. I went to a club with two friends and approached two Sluts and asked if they might know a girl for me. They just laughed and said, Not a chance. This is just an example of what my life is like. I've often left the club with suicidal thoughts and cried because I felt so bad about getting DNRD.
I really don't know what to do anymore. The only thing that can save me is money. Living as an men is so hard. My sister is 5'3 and HLTB, and she has a 6'5 HTN boyfriend. I'm really close to end it all. Is it really worth improving even more?
I love you all, I feel your suffering, I know many have it even harder. <3

I'm your same height but LTN face and bad skinny frame, so I am like a sub5/sub4

 

[ANTAGONIST]

How did you get so much positive feedback?

Normally people would have called you a fakecel gray. Glowing username halo, i guess.

 

[Zaraj11]

still live with my parents, who are also ND don't like me much, earn well doctor... I'm not low IQ

Go to some university if you haven't already. If your parents are doctor you probably can do the same, being a doctor is high status, you'll sure get a wife.

 

[MTN]

Thanks for the answers. I’m going to stop to improve my looks. I’m unemployed because I was fired from my apprenticeship for doing a few autistic things, and my supervisors were 3 Ugly Sluts I've had problems with female teachers all my school time since the first grade every school year that was also one of the main things that led to my hatred of females.

 

[bluetonguedskink]

about 5'7" and MTN.

Mogs me

 

[psychotic_cock69]

if you are 5'7 you can never be MTN, MTN needs to be atleast 5'11, i am LTN at 5'9.

 

[Neurotic]

No sympathy for anyone MTN and above

 

[IWWorkER]

I’m unemployed because I was fired from my apprenticeship for doing a few autistic things

If you don’t mind telling, what were you working in ?

 

[MTN]

If you don’t mind telling, what were you working in ?

IT Application Development

 

[IWWorkER]

IT Application Development

I see. Did you like it ? Or are you glad to be out ?
Also, what autistic things could you have done to get fired ?

 

[Barlog]

Welcome to the forum above average looking man. You will surely fit in here.

 

[SupremeSaint]

Welcome to the forum I guess

 

[MTN]

I see. Did you like it ? Or are you glad to be out ?
Also, what autistic things could you have done to get fired ?

I worked at a large company. It wasn’t really that bad, Being socially skilled was also very important there. I was told that I often didn’t make eye contact with people, and that I frequently didn’t respond when people greeted me. I was often late, and I often didn’t reply to emails from supervisors. For example, when one supervisor foid complained that I was late again, I somehow started laughing. There were also several other things i did. I was also often stoned there during that time.

 

[IWWorkER]

I worked at a large company. It wasn’t really that bad, Being socially skilled was also very important there. I was told that I often didn’t make eye contact with people, and that I frequently didn’t respond when people greeted me. I was often late, and I often didn’t reply to emails from supervisors. For example, when one supervisor foid complained that I was late again, I somehow started laughing. There were also several other things i did.

Lmao. Being fired for this. Brutal. Corporatekikes should all be hanged tbh, nothing of value would be lost.

Well, what are you planning next ? Getting back in IT, or something else ? Good luck either way.

 

[MTN]

Well, what are you planning next ?

Rope

 

[IWWorkER]

Welcome to the forum above average looking man. You will surely fit in here.

Well, there's a 6'4 user here already, or so I've heard...

 

[IWWorkER]

Rope

Brutal, you're barely 18 though, so please reconsider.

 

[SaintSmerdyakov]

Di

Thanks to everyone who reads this. I'm writing this text drunk and high, just so you know. I'm from Germany.
I'm 18 years old, about 5'7" and MTN. I've been into looksmaxxing for a while, thinking it would save me. I do everything I can right now. I've been taking testosterone since I turned 18 and HGH since I was 17. I have ADHD and get prescribed amphetamines, but I think Im autistic. I'm unemployed and still live with my parents, who are also ND don't like me much, earn well doctor... I'm not low IQ, but that doesn't really help me because I'm ND (I always try to act normal, but people still notice). Sometimes I have suicidal thoughts because of my looks. Today I had another very bad day this has happened too many times, even worse. I went to a club with two friends and approached two Sluts and asked if they might know a girl for me. They just laughed and said, Not a chance. This is just an example of what my life is like. I've often left the club with suicidal thoughts and cried because I felt so bad about getting DNRD.
I really don't know what to do anymore. The only thing that can save me is money. Living as an men is so hard. My sister is 5'3 and HLTB, and she has a 6'5 HTN boyfriend. I'm really close to end it all. Is it really worth improving even more?
I love you all, I feel your suffering, I know many have it even harder. <3

did hgh do anything for you

 

[SaintSmerdyakov]

Why does every zoomer supposedly have ADHD? I bet most of you weren’t actually born with it, but developed ADHD symptoms due to doomscrolling on TikTok and Instagram.

Because Jews give us fucked up meds and seed oil red 40 shit for lunch

 

[MTN]

Di

did hgh do anything for you

I haven't grown in height, my growth plates are probably already closed. My mother is very short, and my father is about 5'9".

 

[SaintSmerdyakov]

I haven't grown in height, my growth plates are probably already closed. My mother is very short, and my father is about 5'9".

I'm on HGH but I fear it's too late for any improvement my plates are likely closed

 

[UglyDumbass]

Welcome to the forum, brocel

 

[Autist]

18 years + MTN = you will ascend in less than 2 years

 

[Argenfarker]

18 years + MTN = you will ascend in less than 2 years

2 months*

 

[Chud Norris72]

Welcome to the forum above average looking man. You will surely fit in here.

5'7