Brutal, I especially hate the way normalfags talk about sex/kisses/holding hands - utterly non-chalant and completely open. As if it was the most normal thing in the world for them while 30% of men rot. It is so brutal when you think about the moments in your early life where you thought that it was possible to get your dream job and a loving GF, jfl, even as I grew older I realized that with my stats the jobs I wanted were unattainable, but I still thought that love was there for everyone.
Until 18 I could cope with the fact that for me it just happens "later" and that I should just wait (even though I started looksmaxxing at that time already) - when I hit my early 20s I realized how over it was and that experience in the early years is a prerequisite for finding love later in life.
I hate this fucking world so much, I know that nobody would ever willingly spend time with an autistic freak like me without payment/another advantage being involved, the sheer level of hatred that this revelation/epiphany caused is undescribable. Everywhere I went I had to fight for getting the most basal things in life (like a normal education), I had to fight for things that normalfags considered for granted and I am not willing to put in that extra amount of effort in just because I have been born in the way I have been born. I worked my ass off for things that come naturally to others. Not anymore. Fuck women, fuck happy people and fuck society - because why not?
