You are the future, im not long for this world.
I think of suicide as much as @Fat Link thinks of rasslin his gf rachel who's fatter than him while waiting his Triple Cheeseburger + Fries + Sausage McGriddles order to be prepared by @erenyeager who is supposed to fix everything after his night shift is done.
or as much as @DarkStar posts about quitting this forum and becoming the next hitler while all his friends are ethnics.
or as much as @svgmn1 gave his sheikh uncle head growing up to learn proper islam.
or as much as @Old Ironsides thinks of how Christian societies historically owned and justified black slavery, especially during the transatlantic slave trade from the 15th to the 19th century.
All while he's looking at his nigger hands in praying position, trying to focus on the father preaching the lord's words to him on a random sunday .
Or in more simple terms, as much as @wereq.feelsdevil thinks of being a human toilet to a white woman.
Anyways thats not the point, the point is im having a cig right now and wana cry but i cant cry because i have anhedonia, since i cant cry to relief some stress i want to rope but i cant even rope because again i have anheodnia which makes me too lazy to even orchestrate a roping situation to finally get the rest i deserve and WANT.
Too lazy to rope thats basically where i am right now. LITERALLY too lazy to rope.
So i am stuck in this cycle of wanting to rope but cant do it not because im scared but because im severely depressed to the point that im not depressed anymore im just there.
Nobody will understand what i mean, it's over.
I think of suicide as much as @Fat Link thinks of rasslin his gf rachel who's fatter than him while waiting his Triple Cheeseburger + Fries + Sausage McGriddles order to be prepared by @erenyeager who is supposed to fix everything after his night shift is done.
or as much as @DarkStar posts about quitting this forum and becoming the next hitler while all his friends are ethnics.
or as much as @svgmn1 gave his sheikh uncle head growing up to learn proper islam.
or as much as @Old Ironsides thinks of how Christian societies historically owned and justified black slavery, especially during the transatlantic slave trade from the 15th to the 19th century.
All while he's looking at his nigger hands in praying position, trying to focus on the father preaching the lord's words to him on a random sunday .
Or in more simple terms, as much as @wereq.feelsdevil thinks of being a human toilet to a white woman.
Anyways thats not the point, the point is im having a cig right now and wana cry but i cant cry because i have anhedonia, since i cant cry to relief some stress i want to rope but i cant even rope because again i have anheodnia which makes me too lazy to even orchestrate a roping situation to finally get the rest i deserve and WANT.
Too lazy to rope thats basically where i am right now. LITERALLY too lazy to rope.
So i am stuck in this cycle of wanting to rope but cant do it not because im scared but because im severely depressed to the point that im not depressed anymore im just there.
Nobody will understand what i mean, it's over.
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