Sasukecel
My only goal is to ascend and fight back
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One of the most common thing I think about is how am I still alive? My entire life is just bullying, isolation, toxic family life, hopes being crushed, unfair circumstances over and over again. And for some reason, I didn't kill myself.
One thing that's solidified in my mind is the confirmation of my goal in my head. It's not a larp anymore, it's not a thought. It's a fuck it, I don't care how stupid the risk is, I'm going to do it because I would rather die then not do it. If I hide or go down a normal traditional life, my life would be fucking shit because I would remember the millions of people making fun of me only to work a traditional 9 - 5 shitty job.
For the last 30 minutes I was crying in bed over how unfair the world is. I'm not going to pretend like I'm motivated or ambitious, I'm a fucking loser low t pussy who feels submissive, who can't focus or manage his time despite having google calendar, who has a shitty life. I can never have a reputation, because of a call I did 3 months ago because I was so stupid I listened to some people on discord. Even if today, I decided I would work 10 hours a day, no one would respect me and people would laugh in my fucking face, because 1, I'm ugly, 2, my reputation is gone.
My life is fucking shit and the world is unfair. So I refuse to conform, and I refuse to not get what I want.
One thing Sasuke said in the anime was he would accept everyone's hate to pursue his goal or some bullshit, and that's what I'm going to do. My own parents don't give a fuck about me, I have some civil conversations here, but if you're going to hate or dislike me because I want to revolt and fight back against this shitty society, I don't care because no one liked me in the first place.
This is getting too long so there'll be a part 2
One thing that's solidified in my mind is the confirmation of my goal in my head. It's not a larp anymore, it's not a thought. It's a fuck it, I don't care how stupid the risk is, I'm going to do it because I would rather die then not do it. If I hide or go down a normal traditional life, my life would be fucking shit because I would remember the millions of people making fun of me only to work a traditional 9 - 5 shitty job.
For the last 30 minutes I was crying in bed over how unfair the world is. I'm not going to pretend like I'm motivated or ambitious, I'm a fucking loser low t pussy who feels submissive, who can't focus or manage his time despite having google calendar, who has a shitty life. I can never have a reputation, because of a call I did 3 months ago because I was so stupid I listened to some people on discord. Even if today, I decided I would work 10 hours a day, no one would respect me and people would laugh in my fucking face, because 1, I'm ugly, 2, my reputation is gone.
My life is fucking shit and the world is unfair. So I refuse to conform, and I refuse to not get what I want.
One thing Sasuke said in the anime was he would accept everyone's hate to pursue his goal or some bullshit, and that's what I'm going to do. My own parents don't give a fuck about me, I have some civil conversations here, but if you're going to hate or dislike me because I want to revolt and fight back against this shitty society, I don't care because no one liked me in the first place.
This is getting too long so there'll be a part 2