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I was about 13. One of the most attractive girls in my year group was shown a picture of me, She remarked that I was a minger. She repeated this assertion when I met her. For some reason it occurred to me to say, “your parents didn’t want you, did they?” She looked shocked and went quiet. I later learnt that my hunch was pretty accurate, and in fact there were strong rumours that she had been an unplanned pregnancy. (Which is no biggie tbh, probably most of us are).
Anyway apparently I “triggered her ptsd” or some other such bullshit. The poor, rich, beautiful, adored, popular blonde was apparently the victim of brutal bullying from me, an acne ridden, friendless dork. I was told again and again I couldn’t imagine what she had been though, her suffering dwarfs mine completely, she’s officially diagnosed and therefore her pain is real and incomparable to mine.
Sometimes I still feel like that 13 year old. I was actually treated like I was nothing, less than nothing, spat on, kicked around, insulted every day of my life. A kid used to take my bag and dump in the urinal on a daily basis. And here I am being told that I need to respect the suffering of this girl, who “feels like she is worthless” despite having a huge circle of sycophantic friends, people constantly praising her and telling her she’s beautiful. Ohh she “feels worthless” does she? She has everything I longed for at the time, constant validation. And the reject boy is supposed to have sympathy for her?
I was labelled a bully for that comment I made. I continued to endure worse and worse bullying for years. She continued to be worshipped and act like it wasn’t enough for her,
I don’t even know what point I’m trying to make. I’m tired.
Anyway apparently I “triggered her ptsd” or some other such bullshit. The poor, rich, beautiful, adored, popular blonde was apparently the victim of brutal bullying from me, an acne ridden, friendless dork. I was told again and again I couldn’t imagine what she had been though, her suffering dwarfs mine completely, she’s officially diagnosed and therefore her pain is real and incomparable to mine.
Sometimes I still feel like that 13 year old. I was actually treated like I was nothing, less than nothing, spat on, kicked around, insulted every day of my life. A kid used to take my bag and dump in the urinal on a daily basis. And here I am being told that I need to respect the suffering of this girl, who “feels like she is worthless” despite having a huge circle of sycophantic friends, people constantly praising her and telling her she’s beautiful. Ohh she “feels worthless” does she? She has everything I longed for at the time, constant validation. And the reject boy is supposed to have sympathy for her?
I was labelled a bully for that comment I made. I continued to endure worse and worse bullying for years. She continued to be worshipped and act like it wasn’t enough for her,
I don’t even know what point I’m trying to make. I’m tired.
