i remember i was briefly there trying to be trained and asking questions and by the end when i said bye to the foid i thought she didn’t hear me so i again just as clearly repeated myself and realized she was blatantly ignoring me while amicably acknowledging the others, it felt pretty bad. my socked feet were probably sweating while i just stood there like an idiot soullessly looking on to her ignoring me to the very end. they have some kinda selective detectors insisting on who isn’t a normie or are or something i shit you not, despite not being hot shit. but i was so embarrassed i didn’t bother to show up to continue training. it might have seemed rash but i knew coworkers make or break your ability to cooperate and work so i simply left. it’s not like i wanted to say bye, and i don’t care if it’s being ignored and treated invisible outside of a work environment, ignoring in that setting is another level of establishing the tone to the grueling consecutives of what i have no choice to expect from the beginning onward and put up with which is a different thing. someone ignoring and singling you out in a shared manner to keep is likely not going to change their outer attitude towards you, they decided to make it hard for you and when they don’t hesitate to do so in front of others also likely to single you out due to their capriciousness warranting them on their clique effort and organized derogation of the fucking public modum with its indiscretions invigorating the indistinct perpendicularity and nature of the norm, it’s futile. it’s bullshit exactness that doesn’t care about your reaction to the absurd. you get basically no chance to build from using the dissonance of work-professional yet socially lenient settings you missed to minimally blend in and because you couldn’t ground yourself around the normies around you it became obvious to them as it was largely futile to you