First of all, don’t ever bring up this black pill incel ever again. Get rid of it completely from your vocabulary and if you ever hear of it again pretend like you just don’t know what it even means. You have to purge that toxic shit from your mind. Quit giving it any thought, ever. After enough time of not thinking about it it will eventually become a distant memory that you forgot about was even apart of your life. If anything, just admit to being misogynistic before but that’s as far as you will ever identify with for your past self. Only if you are with a counselor or someone who is helping you work through your past even bring up the misogyny. You have to decondition your mind and only through time and active effort of not thinking about it will you eventually be better. Also, there’s plenty of great guys that are virgins in their 30s. It’s really not that bad I’m pretty sure my brother is and he is 31. Find a new hobby or multiple and make new friends through that. And if you want to work on the girl thing, first of all lower your standards and go out and talk to girls you normally wouldn’t. Just practice talking with them. You might even find you like one for who they are. Eventually with enough ACTION you can be in a good relationship living a life you never even dreamed up before. Good luck