Venting 24m MY LIFE FUCKING SUCKS (LATE NIGHT CRASHOUT I TYPED)

[Grainbrain_Zombie]

I NEVER EVEN GOT TO DO ANYTHING IN MY YOUTH.

I AM LOCKED UP ON MY ROOM IN SHAME AND SILENCE

TOO SCARED TO GO OUT AND DEAL WITH PEOPLE

CAUSE OF FACTORS BEYOND MY CONTROLOOK MY LOOKS AND HWALTHA S A TEENAGER

I WAS FUCKING OUTCASTED FROM WVERYWHERE

GIRLS PLAYED MUSICAL CHAIRS ANY MOMENT IT BECAME CLEAR SOMEONE WOULD HAVE TO SIT NEXT TO ME GUYS FIDN’t WANT TO BE FRIENDS AND I COULDN’T BEST ANYONE IN A FIGHT

BUT ADMITTIMG THIS ALL ENCOMPASSING WEAKKNESS GIVES PEOPLE AROUND ME A SICK PLEASURE I REFUSE TO GIVE THEM

TJEY FEEL SO DOMINANT WHEN I ADMIT THIS WEAKNESS.

THAT’S WHY IM HOLED UP ON MY ROOM.


At LEAST GUYS LIKE “HIM” GOT TO LIVE. LIVE. LIVE . Suffering or not. THEU LIVED. OUT THERE In the world. WITJ PEOPLE. THEY DID ATUFF. . STUFFF HAPPENED TO THEM. BUT ME IM JUST ENDLESS LONELINE I NEVER EVEN GOT TO DO ANYTHING IN MY YOUTH

I AM LOCKED UP ON MY ROOM IN SHAME AND SILENCE

TOO SACRED TO GO OUT AND DEAL WITH PEOPLE

AND NO MATTER WA

HAT THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS FUCKING NO.

I WANTED MY CHILDHOOD CRUSh

I WANTED FRIENXS. NOPE

I WANTED A JOB. NOPE

I WANTED A LEFORT3 NOPE.

ITS ALWAYS FUCKING REJECTION EVEN FROM A FUCKING SURGEON NEVER ANYTHING ELSE. IM SO TIRED MAN.

YOU KNOW, ITS OLD MEN WITHOUT FAMILIES WHO SIT ON BENCHES WHO LIVE THE KIND OF EXPERIENCE WHERE THEY FEEL THEIR TIME’S OVER AND THEY CAN ONLY OBSERVE SOCIETY FROM A GLASS CAGE. I AM LIVING IN MY TYOUTH. HOW FUCKING UNFAIR IS THAT? AGE MADE THEM TOO UGLY AND BORING FOR ADVENTURE

WHY THE FUCK WAS I BORN TO LIVE THAT OLD-MAN existence from start to finish?

 

[theanty]

brutal second post

 

[TimeMachineOrLDAR]

Same but I'm 25

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

I NEVER EVEN GOT TO DO ANYTHING IN MY YOUTH.

I AM LOCKED UP ON MY ROOM IN SHAME AND SILENCE

TOO SCARED TO GO OUT AND DEAL WITH PEOPLE

CAUSE OF FACTORS BEYOND MY CONTROLOOK MY LOOKS AND HWALTHA S A TEENAGER

I WAS FUCKING OUTCASTED FROM WVERYWHERE

Can relate

 

[PhineasSpear]

Can relate

 

[ChudCrusader]

brutal second post

Absolutely brutal second post crashout

 

[meltrag]

Feel ya. Especially the “looking down” part after telling someone about your struggles. Even “good” friends suddenly feel and act superior when they sense weakness. In my case it’s often been a subtle increase of disrespect that grows bigger and bigger.

 

[Itsoverm8]

I never got anything I ever wanted out of this life

 

[packardD]

I NEVER EVEN GOT TO DO ANYTHING IN MY YOUTH.

I AM LOCKED UP ON MY ROOM IN SHAME AND SILENCE

TOO SCARED TO GO OUT AND DEAL WITH PEOPLE

CAUSE OF FACTORS BEYOND MY CONTROLOOK MY LOOKS AND HWALTHA S A TEENAGER

I WAS FUCKING OUTCASTED FROM WVERYWHERE

GIRLS PLAYED MUSICAL CHAIRS ANY MOMENT IT BECAME CLEAR SOMEONE WOULD HAVE TO SIT NEXT TO ME GUYS FIDN’t WANT TO BE FRIENDS AND I COULDN’T BEST ANYONE IN A FIGHT

BUT ADMITTIMG THIS ALL ENCOMPASSING WEAKKNESS GIVES PEOPLE AROUND ME A SICK PLEASURE I REFUSE TO GIVE THEM

TJEY FEEL SO DOMINANT WHEN I ADMIT THIS WEAKNESS.

THAT’S WHY IM HOLED UP ON MY ROOM.


At LEAST GUYS LIKE “HIM” GOT TO LIVE. LIVE. LIVE . Suffering or not. THEU LIVED. OUT THERE In the world. WITJ PEOPLE. THEY DID ATUFF. . STUFFF HAPPENED TO THEM. BUT ME IM JUST ENDLESS LONELINE I NEVER EVEN GOT TO DO ANYTHING IN MY YOUTH

I AM LOCKED UP ON MY ROOM IN SHAME AND SILENCE

TOO SACRED TO GO OUT AND DEAL WITH PEOPLE

AND NO MATTER WA

HAT THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS FUCKING NO.

I WANTED MY CHILDHOOD CRUSh

I WANTED FRIENXS. NOPE

I WANTED A JOB. NOPE

I WANTED A LEFORT3 NOPE.

ITS ALWAYS FUCKING REJECTION EVEN FROM A FUCKING SURGEON NEVER ANYTHING ELSE. IM SO TIRED MAN.

YOU KNOW, ITS OLD MEN WITHOUT FAMILIES WHO SIT ON BENCHES WHO LIVE THE KIND OF EXPERIENCE WHERE THEY FEEL THEIR TIME’S OVER AND THEY CAN ONLY OBSERVE SOCIETY FROM A GLASS CAGE. I AM LIVING IN MY TYOUTH. HOW FUCKING UNFAIR IS THAT? AGE MADE THEM TOO UGLY AND BORING FOR ADVENTURE

WHY THE FUCK WAS I BORN TO LIVE THAT OLD-MAN existence from start to finish?

this is brutal and relatable on every single level. i too got denied a surgery (rhinoplasty) back in june 2024 because i have thick skin on my nose... just waiting for death at this point. i am defeated

 

[Grainbrain_Zombie]

this is brutal and relatable on every single level. i too got denied a surgery (rhinoplasty) back in june 2024 because i have thick skin on my nose... just waiting for death at this point. i am defeated

Hey do you know you can fix that by applying hydrocortisone on the fleshy parts of your nose. It will reliably thin the skin and even the soft tissue.
Do it nightly and ask to get checked by ur rhino doctor in two months.

But i got rejected for LeFort3. Nigga its very hard to pull to a surgeon and explain i need a life risking skull rearrangement becaude i want “hunter eyes” . I actually said that to the surgeon when they pried deep into why i want it. He and his foid secretary had a laugh about it.

 

[goy]

I NEVER EVEN GOT TO DO ANYTHING IN MY YOUTH.

I AM LOCKED UP ON MY ROOM IN SHAME AND SILENCE

TOO SCARED TO GO OUT AND DEAL WITH PEOPLE

CAUSE OF FACTORS BEYOND MY CONTROLOOK MY LOOKS AND HWALTHA S A TEENAGER

I WAS FUCKING OUTCASTED FROM WVERYWHERE

GIRLS PLAYED MUSICAL CHAIRS ANY MOMENT IT BECAME CLEAR SOMEONE WOULD HAVE TO SIT NEXT TO ME GUYS FIDN’t WANT TO BE FRIENDS AND I COULDN’T BEST ANYONE IN A FIGHT

BUT ADMITTIMG THIS ALL ENCOMPASSING WEAKKNESS GIVES PEOPLE AROUND ME A SICK PLEASURE I REFUSE TO GIVE THEM

TJEY FEEL SO DOMINANT WHEN I ADMIT THIS WEAKNESS.

THAT’S WHY IM HOLED UP ON MY ROOM.


At LEAST GUYS LIKE “HIM” GOT TO LIVE. LIVE. LIVE . Suffering or not. THEU LIVED. OUT THERE In the world. WITJ PEOPLE. THEY DID ATUFF. . STUFFF HAPPENED TO THEM. BUT ME IM JUST ENDLESS LONELINE I NEVER EVEN GOT TO DO ANYTHING IN MY YOUTH

I AM LOCKED UP ON MY ROOM IN SHAME AND SILENCE

TOO SACRED TO GO OUT AND DEAL WITH PEOPLE

AND NO MATTER WA

HAT THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS FUCKING NO.

I WANTED MY CHILDHOOD CRUSh

I WANTED FRIENXS. NOPE

I WANTED A JOB. NOPE

I WANTED A LEFORT3 NOPE.

ITS ALWAYS FUCKING REJECTION EVEN FROM A FUCKING SURGEON NEVER ANYTHING ELSE. IM SO TIRED MAN.

YOU KNOW, ITS OLD MEN WITHOUT FAMILIES WHO SIT ON BENCHES WHO LIVE THE KIND OF EXPERIENCE WHERE THEY FEEL THEIR TIME’S OVER AND THEY CAN ONLY OBSERVE SOCIETY FROM A GLASS CAGE. I AM LIVING IN MY TYOUTH. HOW FUCKING UNFAIR IS THAT? AGE MADE THEM TOO UGLY AND BORING FOR ADVENTURE

WHY THE FUCK WAS I BORN TO LIVE THAT OLD-MAN existence from start to finish?

can relate

 

[Grainbrain_Zombie]

can relate

Which part

 

[goy]

Which part

locking up myself in a quiet room and wanting friends

 

[Grainbrain_Zombie]

locking up myself in a quiet room and wanting friend

how old r u

 

[goy]

how old r u

18 this year

 

[Grainbrain_Zombie]

16-17 this year

I was friendless back then too. Im 24 now.
time dont change SHIT. How will u avoid becoming me

 

[goy]

I was friendless back then too. Im 24 now.
time dont change SHIT. How will u avoid becoming me

damn that's hard bro, I hope it gets better for us both

 

[Grainbrain_Zombie]

damn that's hard bro, I hope it gets better for us both

Lol dont u have exams this year
U will likely end up studying polynomial equations for them in ur tiny room like indid meanwhile popular boys host “study groups” and just talk shit with their friends and girls instead of actually studying

 

[undesiredsamsung]

Same but I'm 19

 

[pisser]

Hell hole reality, i need a gun already

 

[goy]

Lol dont u have exams this year
U will likely end up studying polynomial equations for them in ur tiny room like indid meanwhile popular boys host “study groups” and just talk shit with their friends and girls instead of actually studying

yeah actually, but i picked sociology so there would be almost no equations

 

[Grainbrain_Zombie]

yeah actually, but i picked sociology so there would be almost no equations

Lmao an incel sociologist. Apply that sociology bruh

 

[goy]

Lmao an incel sociologist. Apply that sociology bruh

for sure LMAOO

 

[Grainbrain_Zombie]

for sure LMAOO

I found ur racist ramblings where u call non-jbws as apes. as a peanut butter complexion brown man i will not be engaging with u. my lawyers will be in touch

 

[goy]

I found ur racist ramblings where u call non-jbws as apes. as a peanut butter complexion brown man i will not be engaging with u. my lawyers will be in touch

NO, you shall not sue me

 

[poorenglishcel]

Lol dont u have exams this year
U will likely end up studying polynomial equations for them in ur tiny room like indid meanwhile popular boys host “study groups” and just talk shit with their friends and girls instead of actually studying

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[Todd Thundercock]

its ok bud

 

[Grainbrain_Zombie]

its ok bud

Ain’t shit okay nigger. I lose braincells when i pour my soul into these crashouts nigger

 

[goy]

chillax, watch and fap to pussy fart porn

 

[parbate2025]

I NEVER EVEN GOT TO DO ANYTHING IN MY YOUTH.

I AM LOCKED UP ON MY ROOM IN SHAME AND SILENCE

TOO SCARED TO GO OUT AND DEAL WITH PEOPLE

CAUSE OF FACTORS BEYOND MY CONTROLOOK MY LOOKS AND HWALTHA S A TEENAGER

I WAS FUCKING OUTCASTED FROM WVERYWHERE

GIRLS PLAYED MUSICAL CHAIRS ANY MOMENT IT BECAME CLEAR SOMEONE WOULD HAVE TO SIT NEXT TO ME GUYS FIDN’t WANT TO BE FRIENDS AND I COULDN’T BEST ANYONE IN A FIGHT

BUT ADMITTIMG THIS ALL ENCOMPASSING WEAKKNESS GIVES PEOPLE AROUND ME A SICK PLEASURE I REFUSE TO GIVE THEM

TJEY FEEL SO DOMINANT WHEN I ADMIT THIS WEAKNESS.

THAT’S WHY IM HOLED UP ON MY ROOM.


At LEAST GUYS LIKE “HIM” GOT TO LIVE. LIVE. LIVE . Suffering or not. THEU LIVED. OUT THERE In the world. WITJ PEOPLE. THEY DID ATUFF. . STUFFF HAPPENED TO THEM. BUT ME IM JUST ENDLESS LONELINE I NEVER EVEN GOT TO DO ANYTHING IN MY YOUTH

I AM LOCKED UP ON MY ROOM IN SHAME AND SILENCE

TOO SACRED TO GO OUT AND DEAL WITH PEOPLE

AND NO MATTER WA

HAT THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS FUCKING NO.

I WANTED MY CHILDHOOD CRUSh

I WANTED FRIENXS. NOPE

I WANTED A JOB. NOPE

I WANTED A LEFORT3 NOPE.

ITS ALWAYS FUCKING REJECTION EVEN FROM A FUCKING SURGEON NEVER ANYTHING ELSE. IM SO TIRED MAN.

YOU KNOW, ITS OLD MEN WITHOUT FAMILIES WHO SIT ON BENCHES WHO LIVE THE KIND OF EXPERIENCE WHERE THEY FEEL THEIR TIME’S OVER AND THEY CAN ONLY OBSERVE SOCIETY FROM A GLASS CAGE. I AM LIVING IN MY TYOUTH. HOW FUCKING UNFAIR IS THAT? AGE MADE THEM TOO UGLY AND BORING FOR ADVENTURE

WHY THE FUCK WAS I BORN TO LIVE THAT OLD-MAN existence from start to finish?

Can relate bro.i am also 24 M.
It's getting worse and worse

 

[Pikacel]

I NEVER EVEN GOT TO DO ANYTHING IN MY YOUTH.

I AM LOCKED UP ON MY ROOM IN SHAME AND SILENCE

TOO SCARED TO GO OUT AND DEAL WITH PEOPLE

CAUSE OF FACTORS BEYOND MY CONTROLOOK MY LOOKS AND HWALTHA S A TEENAGER

I WAS FUCKING OUTCASTED FROM WVERYWHERE

GIRLS PLAYED MUSICAL CHAIRS ANY MOMENT IT BECAME CLEAR SOMEONE WOULD HAVE TO SIT NEXT TO ME GUYS FIDN’t WANT TO BE FRIENDS AND I COULDN’T BEST ANYONE IN A FIGHT

BUT ADMITTIMG THIS ALL ENCOMPASSING WEAKKNESS GIVES PEOPLE AROUND ME A SICK PLEASURE I REFUSE TO GIVE THEM

TJEY FEEL SO DOMINANT WHEN I ADMIT THIS WEAKNESS.

THAT’S WHY IM HOLED UP ON MY ROOM.


At LEAST GUYS LIKE “HIM” GOT TO LIVE. LIVE. LIVE . Suffering or not. THEU LIVED. OUT THERE In the world. WITJ PEOPLE. THEY DID ATUFF. . STUFFF HAPPENED TO THEM. BUT ME IM JUST ENDLESS LONELINE I NEVER EVEN GOT TO DO ANYTHING IN MY YOUTH

I AM LOCKED UP ON MY ROOM IN SHAME AND SILENCE

TOO SACRED TO GO OUT AND DEAL WITH PEOPLE

AND NO MATTER WA

HAT THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS FUCKING NO.

I WANTED MY CHILDHOOD CRUSh

I WANTED FRIENXS. NOPE

I WANTED A JOB. NOPE

I WANTED A LEFORT3 NOPE.

ITS ALWAYS FUCKING REJECTION EVEN FROM A FUCKING SURGEON NEVER ANYTHING ELSE. IM SO TIRED MAN.

YOU KNOW, ITS OLD MEN WITHOUT FAMILIES WHO SIT ON BENCHES WHO LIVE THE KIND OF EXPERIENCE WHERE THEY FEEL THEIR TIME’S OVER AND THEY CAN ONLY OBSERVE SOCIETY FROM A GLASS CAGE. I AM LIVING IN MY TYOUTH. HOW FUCKING UNFAIR IS THAT? AGE MADE THEM TOO UGLY AND BORING FOR ADVENTURE

WHY THE FUCK WAS I BORN TO LIVE THAT OLD-MAN existence from start to finish?

Brutal and real asf

 

[VanGobbel]

RIP OP

 

[XUn0rth0doxS0rrowsX]

I NEVER EVEN GOT TO DO ANYTHING IN MY YOUTH.

I AM LOCKED UP ON MY ROOM IN SHAME AND SILENCE

TOO SCARED TO GO OUT AND DEAL WITH PEOPLE

CAUSE OF FACTORS BEYOND MY CONTROLOOK MY LOOKS AND HWALTHA S A TEENAGER

I WAS FUCKING OUTCASTED FROM WVERYWHERE

GIRLS PLAYED MUSICAL CHAIRS ANY MOMENT IT BECAME CLEAR SOMEONE WOULD HAVE TO SIT NEXT TO ME GUYS FIDN’t WANT TO BE FRIENDS AND I COULDN’T BEST ANYONE IN A FIGHT

BUT ADMITTIMG THIS ALL ENCOMPASSING WEAKKNESS GIVES PEOPLE AROUND ME A SICK PLEASURE I REFUSE TO GIVE THEM

TJEY FEEL SO DOMINANT WHEN I ADMIT THIS WEAKNESS.

THAT’S WHY IM HOLED UP ON MY ROOM.


At LEAST GUYS LIKE “HIM” GOT TO LIVE. LIVE. LIVE . Suffering or not. THEU LIVED. OUT THERE In the world. WITJ PEOPLE. THEY DID ATUFF. . STUFFF HAPPENED TO THEM. BUT ME IM JUST ENDLESS LONELINE I NEVER EVEN GOT TO DO ANYTHING IN MY YOUTH

I AM LOCKED UP ON MY ROOM IN SHAME AND SILENCE

TOO SACRED TO GO OUT AND DEAL WITH PEOPLE

AND NO MATTER WA

HAT THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS FUCKING NO.

I WANTED MY CHILDHOOD CRUSh

I WANTED FRIENXS. NOPE

I WANTED A JOB. NOPE

I WANTED A LEFORT3 NOPE.

ITS ALWAYS FUCKING REJECTION EVEN FROM A FUCKING SURGEON NEVER ANYTHING ELSE. IM SO TIRED MAN.

YOU KNOW, ITS OLD MEN WITHOUT FAMILIES WHO SIT ON BENCHES WHO LIVE THE KIND OF EXPERIENCE WHERE THEY FEEL THEIR TIME’S OVER AND THEY CAN ONLY OBSERVE SOCIETY FROM A GLASS CAGE. I AM LIVING IN MY TYOUTH. HOW FUCKING UNFAIR IS THAT? AGE MADE THEM TOO UGLY AND BORING FOR ADVENTURE

WHY THE FUCK WAS I BORN TO LIVE THAT OLD-MAN existence from start to finish?

Real