I just don't care about girls or life anymore
Because i always get rejected. To keep it short, there's a girl at my new job that I've developed a crush on. My workmates keep teasing me about her ever since i told them i like her. Today they kept making lots of references about me and her as i heard my name being called out a lot.
It took me back to a situation over 7 years ago in high school where i got bullied mercilessly for liking a girl and it kept me from ever approaching a girl ever again. I've asked out a few girls since then and i've been met mostly with rejections and very little success. It has kept me from maintaining much contact with girls cos i just cant get them to like me so clearly something is wrong with me. Even if i do, it makes no difference and i sometimes end up resenting girls that do like me once i see that they're just humans.
My friends both at work and school always big me up and appreciate all the things i do for them and were grateful to come to my recent birthday bbq as they had a blast but still i don't feel happy at all. I've never had a lover or anything at all in my life and i've been thinking about what it would be like to just drop dead. I haven't got the guts to kill myself though.
I've been offered a job that pays good money in a prime location, but i'd rather stick to my current one which has mediocre pay and is a 24 mile round trip daily and i drive. Basically a lot of good things are happening in my life and I just don't wanna believe they're real and i'm constantly looking for ways to destroy them. For example by driving dangerously and cutting people up.
What can i do?
EDIT: Regarding the girl in question my mates were telling me that she hasn't said explicitly she's not interested but i just assume she is cos she never looks me in the eye when i talk to her and whenever i ask her a question she walks off and looks away. I honestly don't wanna bother cos i'll get rejected and look and feel stupid.
Brutal she can't even bear to make eye contact with him, over for eyecontactcels
Because i always get rejected. To keep it short, there's a girl at my new job that I've developed a crush on. My workmates keep teasing me about her ever since i told them i like her. Today they kept making lots of references about me and her as i heard my name being called out a lot.
It took me back to a situation over 7 years ago in high school where i got bullied mercilessly for liking a girl and it kept me from ever approaching a girl ever again. I've asked out a few girls since then and i've been met mostly with rejections and very little success. It has kept me from maintaining much contact with girls cos i just cant get them to like me so clearly something is wrong with me. Even if i do, it makes no difference and i sometimes end up resenting girls that do like me once i see that they're just humans.
My friends both at work and school always big me up and appreciate all the things i do for them and were grateful to come to my recent birthday bbq as they had a blast but still i don't feel happy at all. I've never had a lover or anything at all in my life and i've been thinking about what it would be like to just drop dead. I haven't got the guts to kill myself though.
I've been offered a job that pays good money in a prime location, but i'd rather stick to my current one which has mediocre pay and is a 24 mile round trip daily and i drive. Basically a lot of good things are happening in my life and I just don't wanna believe they're real and i'm constantly looking for ways to destroy them. For example by driving dangerously and cutting people up.
What can i do?
EDIT: Regarding the girl in question my mates were telling me that she hasn't said explicitly she's not interested but i just assume she is cos she never looks me in the eye when i talk to her and whenever i ask her a question she walks off and looks away. I honestly don't wanna bother cos i'll get rejected and look and feel stupid.
Brutal she can't even bear to make eye contact with him, over for eyecontactcels
