I was taking a lonely walk in my city, I was reminiscing about the time I used to be happy. I remember my parents buying me a ps3 for Christmas. I was excited to play the popular video games that my friends were playing. I purchased Call of Duty Black Ops 2, Minecraft, battlefield, and GTA5. I had a mic headset that I used to talk to other gamers. I easily made friends with other random people on the PlayStation. I had over 100 online friends. I used to invite my friends to play team death-match, free for all, domination, and other fun game modes on BO2. We used to Chat, talk about our lives, make jokes, laugh, trash talk other gamers, it was so fun. My father worked at an office park in Los Angeles, he would bring me food from his work. He used to bring me all kinds of delicious food, he brought me pizza, burgers, fries, Chinese food, Mexican food, gyros, pastas, Italian subs, cake, cookies, muffins, almost everything you can think of. There were times when I would stay up all night grinding on GTA5 while I ate pizza and ate tasty treats. My life was almost perfect. There wasn’t anything that made me feel bad, I was constantly filled with joy and happiness. I was lost in the fun that I had with my friends. It felt like paradise.
I had a best friend in middle school, he and I would talk about video games all day long. We played call of duty and gta 2-5 times per week. We never got tired of playing video games together, we weren’t literally sitting next to each other, we were playing in our own homes. When classes ended for the day, I quickly walked home and the first thing I did was turn on my ps3 and we would play whatever game we wanted for hours and hours until our parents told us to go to bed. Besides my best friend, I had a group of good friends. They were loyal, and they always spent time together during breakfast and lunch break. We used to play tag and we would do all those fun activities that friends do. I never felt bored or alone at school because I had my best friend and my group of friends. In high school, my best friend slowly stopped talking to me but I didn’t really mind because I had other friends who were nice and fun to hang out with. We used to do prank calls, roast each other, do pranks on each other, have hangouts outside of school. When I graduated from high school, my best friend completely cut ties with me, and he has ditched me for other friends he made. My group of friends stopped talking to each other due to them having busy lives and having other priorities.
In my first year of college (2022) I had lost my whole entire social circle. I was all alone. I started to desire a relationship, not video games. I still played video games but not as much as I used to. When I turn on my ps5, I am reminded of the fun and friends I used to have back in my teen years. As I lost interest in video games, I wanted to a female partner. After failing miserably with girls, I realized that I was in a bad situation. I discovered the blackpill and I was reluctant to accept it because I thought it was bad. Without any social support, I became lonely. I discovered the .is forum on google. I decided to join to have a sense of belonging and a community that will accept me. That’s how I ended up here. I used to be a social butterfly. I went from being a bluepilled normie to an incel blackpiller. I’m not a kid anymore but I sometimes have the urge to go back those good old days
I had a best friend in middle school, he and I would talk about video games all day long. We played call of duty and gta 2-5 times per week. We never got tired of playing video games together, we weren’t literally sitting next to each other, we were playing in our own homes. When classes ended for the day, I quickly walked home and the first thing I did was turn on my ps3 and we would play whatever game we wanted for hours and hours until our parents told us to go to bed. Besides my best friend, I had a group of good friends. They were loyal, and they always spent time together during breakfast and lunch break. We used to play tag and we would do all those fun activities that friends do. I never felt bored or alone at school because I had my best friend and my group of friends. In high school, my best friend slowly stopped talking to me but I didn’t really mind because I had other friends who were nice and fun to hang out with. We used to do prank calls, roast each other, do pranks on each other, have hangouts outside of school. When I graduated from high school, my best friend completely cut ties with me, and he has ditched me for other friends he made. My group of friends stopped talking to each other due to them having busy lives and having other priorities.
In my first year of college (2022) I had lost my whole entire social circle. I was all alone. I started to desire a relationship, not video games. I still played video games but not as much as I used to. When I turn on my ps5, I am reminded of the fun and friends I used to have back in my teen years. As I lost interest in video games, I wanted to a female partner. After failing miserably with girls, I realized that I was in a bad situation. I discovered the blackpill and I was reluctant to accept it because I thought it was bad. Without any social support, I became lonely. I discovered the .is forum on google. I decided to join to have a sense of belonging and a community that will accept me. That’s how I ended up here. I used to be a social butterfly. I went from being a bluepilled normie to an incel blackpiller. I’m not a kid anymore but I sometimes have the urge to go back those good old days
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