lol megachads. I couldn't even start to work. tried at a temp agency, from the first moment after having signedbup online for a job it was like shieeeeeet, this sucks. just kept leaving too soon, not even going etc. two places had environment to socialize, so obviously I was the lowest ranked, most despised loner in the corner douche. last two they threw me out and humiliated, then blocked from the platform lol. 'worked' on like 15 days this year and it's a record. previous record? only one year.even did anything at all- 2017, 12 days. how do yall do it? srs I can't, just wanna be home, ldar. have a debt to gubment though, through my retardation. so literally no hope to move out and with my lack of motivation or willpower, it's feeling more and more like damn my options are over. close to 30, delusional, worthless, unable to do anything, happiest when ldar, nothing happened since high school almost a decade ago, feels like I didn't understand anythingvin the world then and it only got worse. and I don't care, no self esteem, just happy with escapism bs. rather live with cunty scumbag parsnts and have ever lower self worth than leave safe bubble andput in any effort