My supervisor put her with me on her first day. I had to train her (I hate training people because you have to talk, which i don't like doing). She asked a lot of questions which annoyed me and am voicecel on top of that, so she kept saying "huh" and giving me the wtf look. We were in a warehouse so its hard for people to hear my voice since I talk so low and fast. Then out of the blue she asks if I was a pre-me. I was shocked that anybody would be disrespectful enough to even ask someone that question. I said "No, why would you ask someone that?" She said "Nevermind". The supervisor moved her to another department because she whined about how hard the work was. I see her during break but I ignore her.
That moment was running through my mind all week, the more I thought about it the more I became pissed off. It brought back another incident of me talking to older black foid co-worker who I liked from a previous job. She was very friendly but politely said "I don't mean to offend you, do you have delayed learning disabilities? You talk funny." I gave her a bs response saying that I was nervous. I wasn't angry when she asked that, but I was very disappointed. I stopped talking to her after that.
It made me question how other people view me when I talk to them. I ask myself, "Do they see me as special needs?". I've noticed over the years that the managers, HR, leads and some co-workers give me the"This guy isn't normal" look after I ask them a question about something. I look at the corner of my eye and see them staring at me wondering "something is wrong with him". I am currently planning on finding a facility so I can get officially diagnosed to see if I have autism. If I have it, I'm going NEET and/or filing for unemployment because I'm tired of the shit, I'm tired of being patronized ad-nauseam and judged for something I can't control. This is long overdue.
That moment was running through my mind all week, the more I thought about it the more I became pissed off. It brought back another incident of me talking to older black foid co-worker who I liked from a previous job. She was very friendly but politely said "I don't mean to offend you, do you have delayed learning disabilities? You talk funny." I gave her a bs response saying that I was nervous. I wasn't angry when she asked that, but I was very disappointed. I stopped talking to her after that.
It made me question how other people view me when I talk to them. I ask myself, "Do they see me as special needs?". I've noticed over the years that the managers, HR, leads and some co-workers give me the"This guy isn't normal" look after I ask them a question about something. I look at the corner of my eye and see them staring at me wondering "something is wrong with him". I am currently planning on finding a facility so I can get officially diagnosed to see if I have autism. If I have it, I'm going NEET and/or filing for unemployment because I'm tired of the shit, I'm tired of being patronized ad-nauseam and judged for something I can't control. This is long overdue.
