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I have been working hard on everything in the last 4 years and Im seeing some results. I stopped eating junk food, eat super healthy, began exercising almost 5x week hyper consistently unless I got very sick. I get at least 20 minutes of sunlight on my skin with no sunscreen a day, I used to be a framelet (120 pounds) so I put on about 10 lbs, etc etc. Basic self improvement nonsense that every redpill bro tells you to do I did. Went a yr+ on semen retention and literally everything and anything you can think of. I even did sungazing for fucks sake. My desperation drove me to the stupidest pseudoscience occultic, yoga, magic you can think of and I did it with almost religious enthusiasm.
The end result of all that? Nothing, Literally nothing. I went from sub average to average so I just get treated the same way I always have. In one of my depressive episodes, I decided to try and befriend more people. Nothing has worked. Every conversation and contact, it's me who is starting and ending the conversation.
No one and I mean NO ONE just randomly thinks of me and shoots me a text. Lately, I've been bolder than usual so I decided to try and make some female friends. It's me who starts every convo, it's me who's asking all the questions, it's all literally me. Male friendships are nearly identical. I found 4 guys throughout the months of college classes and 4/5, it's me who's texting first, and checking in.
Why is it so hard just to have someone I can genuinely befriend? The first person (foid) who ever reciprocated became my oneitis. That ended with her calling me a weird black dude after a few months and subsequently I had to cut them off. Not even other guys and sub5s want to befriend me and if they do it's a shallow connection to where we only see each other and talk if I reach out first.
TLDR: You are ALWAYS a loser if you start out as one. The black pill will never leave even if you become some Giga Chad through a freak disaster. I was born a 5'8 framelet black nigga and there's nothing I do that will change that.
4 years of diehard everything - maxxing since 17 years old just to get mogged by a foid or a Chad who eats Chic fil A and carb heavy processed shit every single day since the day they were born. It's unreal.
The end result of all that? Nothing, Literally nothing. I went from sub average to average so I just get treated the same way I always have. In one of my depressive episodes, I decided to try and befriend more people. Nothing has worked. Every conversation and contact, it's me who is starting and ending the conversation.
No one and I mean NO ONE just randomly thinks of me and shoots me a text. Lately, I've been bolder than usual so I decided to try and make some female friends. It's me who starts every convo, it's me who's asking all the questions, it's all literally me. Male friendships are nearly identical. I found 4 guys throughout the months of college classes and 4/5, it's me who's texting first, and checking in.
Why is it so hard just to have someone I can genuinely befriend? The first person (foid) who ever reciprocated became my oneitis. That ended with her calling me a weird black dude after a few months and subsequently I had to cut them off. Not even other guys and sub5s want to befriend me and if they do it's a shallow connection to where we only see each other and talk if I reach out first.
TLDR: You are ALWAYS a loser if you start out as one. The black pill will never leave even if you become some Giga Chad through a freak disaster. I was born a 5'8 framelet black nigga and there's nothing I do that will change that.
4 years of diehard everything - maxxing since 17 years old just to get mogged by a foid or a Chad who eats Chic fil A and carb heavy processed shit every single day since the day they were born. It's unreal.
