Grim_Reaper
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[BRUTAL] Ricecel Manifesto [WARNING: LONG]
Ricecel living in Southwest Indiana. Chinese father. Filipina mother. Father died when I was 10. White stepfather came into the picture 2 years later, along with his alcohol and abuse problems. Only Ricecel living in my town. Currently still living with my parents as long as I give half of my...
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Ricecel living in Southwest Indiana. Chinese father. Filipina mother. Father died when I was 10. White stepfather came into the picture 2 years later, along with his alcohol and abuse problems. Only Ricecel living in my town. Currently still living with my parents as long as I give half of my income to them as rent.
Physical Stats: Age: 36. Height: 5'4 (last annual doctor's appointment 4 months ago). Weight: 129 lbs. with 15% Body Fat as of writing (via FitBit Scale). Was 127 at my annual checkup. Wrist Circumference: 6 in. measured with measuring tape. Dick (Length x Girth): 3 in. x 3 in. measured with measuring tape. Job: Wal-Mart Cashier.
Can't grow any facial hair. Have the Asian bucktooth overbite. If you don't know what that is, google any Chinese Exclusion Act cartoon back then in the 1880-90s. My family never had the money to get me braces. Voicecel bc my voice sounds gay and with a heavy lisp due to the way my lower face is developed (also recorded my own voice to verify). Eyelid height approx. 1/8 of an inch measured with a measuring tape. Flat nose. Receding hairline AND bald spot. Crow's feet and dark circles. Developing wrinkles on forehead.
Sex stats: KHHV. Never went to high school parties (never invited because who would lol) or dances (forget prom; not that anyone would accept my prom request or anyone would dance with me at HS dances). Went to community college. Never attended any college party. I never had a girl grind her ass on me, so I don't even know what another foid's ass feels like (forget tits). In fact, my parents never kissed me on the cheek as far as I remember, not even as a young boy (maybe as a baby but even that is debatable. Can't ask my mother now because she doesn't talk to me anymore). My only "real" sexual experience? My white stepfather was fucking my mother with the bedroom door open, as my mother screamed how big his cock was. That's the only sexual experience I have. Currently doing self-therapy right now as I have been getting off to too much WMAF porn in the past.
Dating stats: None. Zero. Zip. Used Tinder for 5 years. Bumble for 3. No Tinder or Bumble matches within 100 (Tinder) or 250 (Bumble) miles of my home. No Tinder matches even with Passport, or Bumble matches with Travel, even in "Asian enclaves" like San Francisco, Los Angeles, and NYC. My mother is Filipina, and tried putting my Tinder Passport in Manila, Davao, and Cebu (no luck because duh), and tried other Asian countries like Bangkok, Shanghai, and Seoul. No matches. I even have a pic with a dog on it because every single fucking dating article says having that pic increases your chances of matching, but I'm pretty sure all the women around me think I'm just prepping it for a meal or some shit.
My former delusional cope: I tried to find self-esteem going on cam sites. Some told me I'm handsome, but when I ask honestly what they think of me, they go "average" 5/10, which translates to 0/10 because cam models prop your self-esteem up to keep you coming back and visiting and spending money on you. This is the only thing going for me right now, but shit is expensive. Yes. It had gotten to THAT point. I'm off of that cope now and just sticking to gardening and nature shit, but I'm sharing this because so I can encourage others to forgive themselves and move on from their cringey experiences too.
I cope and try to be positive and say positive things to myself. Try to engage politically, socially, etc. I try to help others out if they have questions. However, how can you be confident and positive when LITERALLY EVERYONE IN THE WORLD THINKS YOU'RE UGLY AND MASK IT AND SAY YOU'RE "CUTE" IN ORDER TO MAKE NOT ME, but THEM FEEL BETTER??
I'm angry. I'm hurt. This world is so cruel. I wish Asian men were sex symbols in Hollywood and entertainment, but that means another race would be left out, and as someone who tries to have a pure heart, I don't want other races to suffer the hurt I'm going through. Is this the burden put on me? To carry this enormous weight so others can be sexually free?
"But riceronicel, there's always someone out there for you!"
FUCK YOU AND ANYONE WHO DARES SAY THAT TO MY FACE. THAT'S JUST FOIDS' WAY OF TELLING ME THAT I'M NOT GOOD FOR THEM. IF THERE'S "SOMEONE" OUT THERE, THEN WHY don't YOU MAKE AN EFFORT YOU FUCKING FOID?!?!
Every day I go on Instagram, Twitter, TikTok, Facebook, or any other social media platform, all I see are Stacys dating white, black, or Hispanic Chads or Normies. You NEVER, EVER, EVER, EVER, EVER, EVER, see ANY, I repeat, ANY Stacy even be IMPLIED, let alone SEEN, in a PLATONIC pic together with a RICE, let alone these social media platforms EVER PROMOTE IT. FORGET RELATIONSHIPS. FORGET MARRIAGES. FORGET FAMILIES.
I'm convinced of something that sounds outrageous to the conventional mind, but I can't help but think this is extremely true. There must be a reason why Hollywood celebrities, entertainers, and supermodels/IG models never have relationships with ANY Asian man (let alone interracial relationships involving Asian men), even the Changs. It's definitely not that they're unavailable, which makes ZERO sense because Los Angeles, the Chad/Stacy entertainment capital of the world and No. 1 destination for all IG Chads/Stacys, has one of the highest concentrations of Rice men in the USA, AND they earn on average a higher income than any other race in the ENTIRE country. My theory? It's because being seen with a Rice is a MARKETING/SPONSORSHIP KILLER. You're seen holding hands with a Rice and that shit gets posted on TMZ? Get ready to lose sponsorships, fans, and revenue. You think I'm crazy? Look what the fuck happened to Lorde. She dated a 2/10 Rice with no jaw or chin and everyone mocked her for it. Even Tyler the Creator thought the entire thing was fucking hilarious. Her music career withered out. They broke up, but by that point it was too late for her. Her career was shot and she has been thrown back into obscurity and irrelevancy. We haven't seen her around since.
It makes me SO ANGRY that these so many of these foids LOVE Rice culture, the "peacefulness," "harmony," "food," of which they only like Japanese hibachi and sushi, Chinese take-out, and maybe one or two select dishes from Korea, Thailand, and Vietnam, and other boo hoo shit like dragons and coconut trees, but hate the men that live there, provide for the culture, and keep it alive until their dying breath. Every Stacy loves a man who can cook because she has no ability to do anything herself...unless it's a hibachi chef, then these Stacy's love the skills and food but not the chef. Same with a sushi chef. I mean let's be honest. When's the last time you heard any foid say they want to have loving intercourse with a HIBACHI/SUSHI CHEF? NEVER. NEVER. NEVER. Everyone likes a badass samurai, but the only samurai the west knows? WHEN TOM FUCKING CRUISE WAS ON IT. What? You think foids want to go gaga for Ken Watanabe? Donnie Yen? Yeah, fuck off. Everyone thinks a karate master is cool. Ever heard anyone want to have sex with one? FUCK NO.
LMAO what, you think that K-Pop gay shit group BTS is changing the scene for ricecels like me? First off, no offense, but have you seen their fans? They are the same stereotypical foids who get bullied for being ugly and fat, and so find refuge in anime and K-Pop. Not even Beckys like K-Pop. They are usually smelly fucking land whales that are into that shit. If, god forbid, a Stacy is into BTS/K-Pop, then she hides it from her friends so she doesn't lose popularity. Stacy's in their high school years like One Direction, Justin Bieber, Shawn Mendes, or some white country singer like Kenny Chesney, Jason Aldean, or Florida Georgia Line (where I'm from anyway). If it's a celebrity/high-profile Stacy showing love to them, like Camila Cabello, then it's not because they're genuinely attracted to Rice, but because the BTS fanbase is one of the most active on the Internet, so it's solely for cross fandom and revenue. Nothing more. Even the "most popular" Rice group out here getting BETABUXXED. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS SHIT?! LOLOL you think Camila Cabello fawning over BTS when a Chad like Shawn Mendes is at her beck and call? Fuck no. That's why she chose the white Chad over a gay rice e-boy group.
Oh, you think that shitty rom-com Asian movie Crazy Rich Asians will help me? First off, Hollywood has indirectly told me that full Rice are never good enough for the big screen. That's why they cast a fucking hapa Chang as the fucking lead. The hapa with numerous white features. You don't believe me? Open 2 tabs on your browser. The first one, google "Asian man." The second, google "Henry Golding," and then tell me if he looks like a Rice.
Even then, tell me the last time some non-Asian bitch fell head over heels for Henry Golding. I'll wait. He was named People's Sexiest Man Alive so the magazines could fill a racial quota, not because he's actually good-looking lololol fuck no. And then you sit and think any foid will fall for a fucking full 100% RICE?! NOPE.
And the worst part? These Stacys don't even hate us openly. They act indifferent on the outside but despise us with the burning desire of a thousand suns in their hearts. That's the worst part. I wish they would just be unfiltered and say Asian men are butt fuck ugly and would never want to even be in the same hemisphere as them, that we're sexless and never deserve to reproduce with them. But this world of political correctness prevents everyone from telling their deepest, darkest feelings. This is the media's way to keep us down. Because if the true thoughts came out, then there would probably be some similar movement to a Black Lives Matter and by that point media cannot afford to ignore us. Hence, to keep us down in the well of sexless hell, they're quiet about it. Never talk about it. Thus, we don't exist in the mind of the foid, and our issues will never be talked about.
Sometimes I wish the West went to war with the East. At least our population and future generations would be saved from the embarrassment everyone else gives us. China has a surplus of men as a result of the disastrous one-child policy implemented by the Chinese government many decades ago. At least many will die with the idea of fighting for their country instead of dying alone having never touched the hand of a foid. Japan has 50 and 60 year old virgins everywhere now, decreasing their population, all because of what? The unrealistic expectation the foids over there have of their own men. Korea, unless you go under the knife to looksmax, you will be forever sexless. Filipinas only love white men, and so do all SEA countries. There's a reason why that dumb show 90 Day Fiance has a fat whitey named Ed with a no neck syndrome getting a filipina girl and you never see any Rice in ANY reality TV show in the west.
It's over for me. It's BEEN over for me. It never began. My father died when I was 10. My Filipina white cock whore mother married the most abusive white man I have ever met in my life. He would whip me for not doing something right (yes you read that right. He WHIPPED me) and beat me with a metal wrench, which I carry the scars to this day (and the numerous bald spots on my head from the beatings).
Hopefully my story and the wisdom I have picked up from my shitty life can help some of you in here to succeed and become the best version of yourselves. I just joined this forum so forgive me as I'm still tinkering around here a little. I have given some looksmax advice, and currently doing a jawzrsize trial which I just crossed half a month.
If you got this far thanks for reading.
I'm Alive
I’m Alive I guess I have some explaining to do. So for those who don’t know or joined after, I made a last post to off myself last year. You can read about it here. For those too lazy as shit, TLDR: I committed to offing myself after my cunt of a stepfather passed away from his diabetic...
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I’m Alive
I guess I have some explaining to do.
So for those who don’t know or joined after, I made a last post to off myself last year. You can read about it here. For those too lazy as shit, TLDR: I committed to offing myself after my cunt of a stepfather passed away from his diabetic complications, but I failed miserably. Details below.
So I heard my mother crying telling my stepfather to wake up in the next room like the white cock hungry whore she was, is, and always will be. I went to their room to check his breathing. Nothing. Next, I checked his pulse. Nothing. He was dead (unofficially, in that moment, at least. Doctors make it official but I mean my stepfather was a dirty fat fuck not even a bolt of lightning would have restarted his heart because of the amount of fat between his heart and his skin). My mother took my stepfather to the hospital (I for sure hell was not going to see him) where I assumed the doctors officially pronounced him dead.
During that time, I was planning out my own end. I took out my stepfather’s gun, loaded it, and turned the safety off to take my own life. It took a few tries, because my hand was shaking so bad from the adrenaline of finally meeting my end and my maker (whom I had a LOT to say to). Eventually, I calmed myself down just enough to put it to my right temple and pull.
The moment I heard the bang, I was finally going to be at peace…
…or so I thought.
All I got was this huge headache on the right side of my face. I couldn’t see anything from my right eye, and the ringing in my ears was so loud I could barely hear myself screaming or thinking.
I didn’t venture to the underworld. I was very much still fucking alive like a little retard I was, is, and always will be.
Did I mention the fucking headache?
I searched for what felt like half an hour trying to find the gun and finish the fucking job I started. Because I shattered the right side of my face, I didn’t have any bone to lean the gun into so I could shoot again. Therefore, I had to switch hands and put the gun on the left side of my face. However, I was shaking so bad from the adrenaline, and I could barely concentrate on what I was doing because of the pain. I accidentally fired off another errant shot, which went straight through the bedroom window and into the night.
All of this commotion, unfortunately, caught the attention of the neighbors. They told me later on that they thought there was a thief stealing shit from the house and a gunfight was going on. They called the cops, who would shortly find a bloody man and carpet laying on the floor trying to take his own life.
I was taken to the hospital, where they cleaned up my mess.
After my surgery, I was taken to a mental hospital, as the doctors evaluated that I needed “help.” Let me tell you right now, going to a hospital because of suicide? You stay in with the others who have mental disorders, schizophrenia, etc. I shared a room with some dude with no teeth who wouldn’t stop staring at me, which was weird yet I didn’t blame him for it. I felt like more of an outcast in a place full of outcasts. I stayed there for a few weeks, until the doctors told me I could go home to live with my mother who would “take care of me” aka barely keep me alive just enough so she doesn’t pay any liabilities for me, but hey, that’s her fault for raising me wrong and making me feel like shit. Now she has to take care of 2 people back to back JFL. At least the disability insurance stipends are nice I guess. I got enough money to buy a new laptop so that was pretty cool.
The brightest side of all of this is that I don’t have to work at that fucking shithole place called Wal-Mart.
Today, I basically look like Harvey Dent in The Dark Knight but with very little actual bone structure (not that I had any to begin with anyway). Imagine if Harvey’s side of his face that was exposed was covered in a sheet of skin. That’s basically the right side of my face right now. The pain has subsided somewhat, and my vision has significantly worsened, and I’m projected to go blind when I get old. Hopefully I’ll be as good as dead before then.
And obviously also Harvey Dent is 6 feet plus tall and a Chad and I’m…an oldcel ricecel manlet KHHV loser with nothing to live for, and now officially prohibited from dying by my own terms.
Fuck this government and this healthcare system.
God I feel so fucking retarded typing this shit out.
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