Great post man, thanks for sharing.
I 100% agree fucking a hooker can be a very positive step for an incel. Of course it's not love or acceptance or ascension. But nobody in their right mind is claiming that it is.
Knowing that you're not a virgin is something. Knowing what a woman's body feels like is something. Knowing that you can physically do it (and not prematurely blow your load all over the front of her dress while she's still taking her knickers off) is something.
Knowing that if the bluepill ever magically comes thru for me and I meet someone who wants me to ascend, I will have some basic competencies around having sex, is something.
I "carefully prepared" for mine by scrolling until I found an advert for one that didn't scare me as much as the others. And I spent the week leading up to it cooming every day, so that my peen would be a bit worn out and numbed, and my balls would be as drained as possible, to minimize what I perceived as the risk of cooming prematurely.
Like you I was just completely honest about myself and my situation, I figured it was ridiculous to pretend otherwise as a professional fucker would just know immediately.
Like you, I remember that feeling of
"HOLY FUCK I'VE ACTUALLY GOT MY PENIS INSIDE A NAKED BEAUTIFUL WOMAN'S VAGINA" being rapidly overtaken by "wow, there's actually no danger of me finishing off in the next ten seconds, I could keep this up for ages!"
I remember being physically exhausted afterwards, people who fuck all the time must have great cardio fitness!
Mine was super sweet and like an overly-enthusiastic personal trainer, she basically kept coaching me on what to do the whole way through. Insisted I had to finish inside her in missionary because a first time should be special like that. And just kinda wrapped me up in her legs and arms after I came, it was a moment I'll never forget.
I did some soul searching later on and realized I had to quit escortcelling because I was going to develop oneitis for her, or whoever else I went to, and that would be a destructive thing not a constructive thing.
But on the whole, I am very glad I did it, and very thankful to the girl for making it the positive thing that it was for me.