No one messes with me, they just don't respect me or take me seriously and look down on me, ignore me like i'am nothing (which i'am). I'm really thinking about roping nowadays, i know it's haram but i can't fucking take it anymore. Allah gave me too unfair and extremely hard life that i don't deserve. No friends, no looks, no money, no height, no hair and now brain fog robbed me of my intelligence and a lot of other sickening shit happens daily in my life. It's fucking unfair considering that i've never even hurt a person and i've always been a good person, i don't deserve this shit. If Allah hates me that much that he gave me this dogshit of a life, then he'll throw me in hell anyways no matter what i do, so better rope now and be done with life and it's bullshit and suffer no more.