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This post is dedicated primarily to the youngcels of this forum.
Ever since I discovered the blackpill and joined this forum I’ve seen a lot of posts where people say that they have finally accepted their fate and are going to live and later die alone in their rooms, without ever experiencing love and affection from a woman.
You’re not ready for it and you haven’t accepted it.
You’re not ready, because you have no idea what it will be like. Most of you here (including me, I’m 21) are youngcels and live with your family, which means you still have some kind of company, despite you have zero friends (like me).
A few months ago I was alone in our house for 8 days and the first few days were pretty good, but it became miserable very quickly. I was doing university during those 8 days and my daily routine was like this: wake up, go to uni, get home, hop on the computer immediately and scroll until it gets dark, then go to sleep. Repeat. I couldn't even make an acquaintance at university, let alone friends, so I didn't talk to anyone there and neither when I got home. There were days when if I didn't talk to myself I wouldn't have said a single word. Completely alone with no one to talk to. Sometimes it wasn't that bad, it was even freeing, but then an hour later the loneliness crashed down on me brutally.
Imagine living like this every single day for years and decades. Zero friends. No social circle. No family to support you. No girlfriend or wife, no kids. You get home from your job to your empty house or apartment, eating your dinner while you blast music or let YouTube videos play on loop - anything to drown the suffocating, deafening void of silence. Going to bed alone and waking up alone. You watch a movie or play video games or read a book to occupy yourself, but as soon as the movie ends, as soon as you turn off the computer or your phone, or close the book you were reading you're on your own - again. And again and again.
As I mentioned earlier, the feeling of freedom and independence can be good at times, you feel peace and satisfaction, but these are temporary feelings and in the long-term, living completely alone will absolutely destroy you - inside and out.
Those of you who have at least one friend you can talk to or you're NT (I'm neither) are and will be slightly better off as the interactions with them will keep your mental health and cognitive abilities from deteriorating, but sooner or later the loneliness will hit you immensely as well.
I somewhat doubt that you can ever find a hobby immersive enough to truly replace community and social connections. If you can find one, only then will you be eligible to claim you're ready to live and die alone (I can't claim it either so I'm not on a high horse when I say this.)
You haven’t accepted your fate, because deep inside you have a slight hope that things might get better.
Every time I see someone here saying "it's over", "never began" and the like I know that the person writing it deep down has not given up the hope that it gets better. Our minds are not capable of accepting the fact our lives are meaningless or hopeless, it goes against our biological and evolutionary instincts, even when it is truly, genuinely over.
What I'm trying to say is that if it were over for you, you wouldn't be here on this forum because you would be either dead or a monk. Yes, our situation is bad, really bad, but we still have that young energy and subconscious drive to make something out of ourselves. I even believe that it's not over in your late 20s or 30s, but that's a different topic and I hasn't reached that age bracket so I can't talk in the name of those guys.
I'm saying all this as someone who has regularly had and still has suicidal thoughts, and given the circumstances, the possibility of me taking my own life cannot be ruled out in the future as I'm doubting myself all the time.
But I have a slight hope, and so do you, fellow youngcels. Some of you WILL ascend, some of you are DESTINED to ascend (by your genes).
For those of you who won't, well... I don't fucking know, we'll see.
Anyway, live for the sake of living, let's see where this world goes.
Ever since I discovered the blackpill and joined this forum I’ve seen a lot of posts where people say that they have finally accepted their fate and are going to live and later die alone in their rooms, without ever experiencing love and affection from a woman.
You’re not ready for it and you haven’t accepted it.
You’re not ready, because you have no idea what it will be like. Most of you here (including me, I’m 21) are youngcels and live with your family, which means you still have some kind of company, despite you have zero friends (like me).
A few months ago I was alone in our house for 8 days and the first few days were pretty good, but it became miserable very quickly. I was doing university during those 8 days and my daily routine was like this: wake up, go to uni, get home, hop on the computer immediately and scroll until it gets dark, then go to sleep. Repeat. I couldn't even make an acquaintance at university, let alone friends, so I didn't talk to anyone there and neither when I got home. There were days when if I didn't talk to myself I wouldn't have said a single word. Completely alone with no one to talk to. Sometimes it wasn't that bad, it was even freeing, but then an hour later the loneliness crashed down on me brutally.
Imagine living like this every single day for years and decades. Zero friends. No social circle. No family to support you. No girlfriend or wife, no kids. You get home from your job to your empty house or apartment, eating your dinner while you blast music or let YouTube videos play on loop - anything to drown the suffocating, deafening void of silence. Going to bed alone and waking up alone. You watch a movie or play video games or read a book to occupy yourself, but as soon as the movie ends, as soon as you turn off the computer or your phone, or close the book you were reading you're on your own - again. And again and again.
As I mentioned earlier, the feeling of freedom and independence can be good at times, you feel peace and satisfaction, but these are temporary feelings and in the long-term, living completely alone will absolutely destroy you - inside and out.
Those of you who have at least one friend you can talk to or you're NT (I'm neither) are and will be slightly better off as the interactions with them will keep your mental health and cognitive abilities from deteriorating, but sooner or later the loneliness will hit you immensely as well.
I somewhat doubt that you can ever find a hobby immersive enough to truly replace community and social connections. If you can find one, only then will you be eligible to claim you're ready to live and die alone (I can't claim it either so I'm not on a high horse when I say this.)
You haven’t accepted your fate, because deep inside you have a slight hope that things might get better.
Every time I see someone here saying "it's over", "never began" and the like I know that the person writing it deep down has not given up the hope that it gets better. Our minds are not capable of accepting the fact our lives are meaningless or hopeless, it goes against our biological and evolutionary instincts, even when it is truly, genuinely over.
What I'm trying to say is that if it were over for you, you wouldn't be here on this forum because you would be either dead or a monk. Yes, our situation is bad, really bad, but we still have that young energy and subconscious drive to make something out of ourselves. I even believe that it's not over in your late 20s or 30s, but that's a different topic and I hasn't reached that age bracket so I can't talk in the name of those guys.
I'm saying all this as someone who has regularly had and still has suicidal thoughts, and given the circumstances, the possibility of me taking my own life cannot be ruled out in the future as I'm doubting myself all the time.
But I have a slight hope, and so do you, fellow youngcels. Some of you WILL ascend, some of you are DESTINED to ascend (by your genes).
For those of you who won't, well... I don't fucking know, we'll see.
Anyway, live for the sake of living, let's see where this world goes.
. Especially that part about people here still having hope of things being better, I've been noticing that for a long time but had no idea how to put it into words.
