For me I was born in an drug abusers alcoholist household. It did however somehow strengthen me as I grew to build a "compatible" "over confident" personality. I am agreeable to most people. My social life works all the time, because as I grew up in a daily dose of abuse I realized I had to do and act as people expected or wanted me to. At school a comedic personality was what got me friends. I was even declared the class clown, a title I held althrought my school life and even into university days.
I make myself agreeable, I've had many chad friends as I can quickly adapt, read the situation how to make myself agreeable, but never likeable to the opposite sex. I've been a bully, a comic and a fighter. I knew my personal background was a hindrance as my classmates in 6th grade asked all the time why there was police cars outside my house (usually mom went into a fit and started throwing shit out the window).
I compensated for all my shortcoming for a long time with real overconfidence. I thought I was hot shit, I was noble, that I stood above others IQ. That part of my personality slowly deteriorated. In high school I realized I got the approval of women. Girls could work with me, they had no problem talking to me. But yet I could never get the attention like other more Chadlike men got.
By my university years my world came down. As I realized I stood as an inferior species. My looks were in every way insufficient, I already knew before I wasnt up to par due to my 5'6 height and smaller penis. 2 years of university and I discovered in all the groupings of men and women together, parties or study groups, the guys liked to have me around. But women usually saw me as a nuisance. My attempts of more personal interaction rejected outright with disgust. They often made no attempt to hide their annoyance, often ignoring me with silence.
The punch in the gut was when they asked if I was a homosexual. Because of my tendency "to make myself agreeable" people said I had a flat personality and it made them question my sexuality.
I make myself agreeable, I've had many chad friends as I can quickly adapt, read the situation how to make myself agreeable, but never likeable to the opposite sex. I've been a bully, a comic and a fighter. I knew my personal background was a hindrance as my classmates in 6th grade asked all the time why there was police cars outside my house (usually mom went into a fit and started throwing shit out the window).
I compensated for all my shortcoming for a long time with real overconfidence. I thought I was hot shit, I was noble, that I stood above others IQ. That part of my personality slowly deteriorated. In high school I realized I got the approval of women. Girls could work with me, they had no problem talking to me. But yet I could never get the attention like other more Chadlike men got.
By my university years my world came down. As I realized I stood as an inferior species. My looks were in every way insufficient, I already knew before I wasnt up to par due to my 5'6 height and smaller penis. 2 years of university and I discovered in all the groupings of men and women together, parties or study groups, the guys liked to have me around. But women usually saw me as a nuisance. My attempts of more personal interaction rejected outright with disgust. They often made no attempt to hide their annoyance, often ignoring me with silence.
The punch in the gut was when they asked if I was a homosexual. Because of my tendency "to make myself agreeable" people said I had a flat personality and it made them question my sexuality.
