you guys dont know how good you have it, take it from a schizophrenic

[lostcel]

i use to browse this forum, get upset over things like my dicksize or whether a girl would ever stay with me without cheating, regular human problems

around 2 years i had my first psychotic episode and it has reccurred many times over trying to quit my meds, psychosis is pure hell on earth, its like uve lost the right to live in your own brain, constant commentary on everything u do and making u feel bad for all ur habits, life decisons everything u do, and no free room to think, just constant chatter making you wanna suicide immediately, when it ends u think ur in heaven again, and that was the real hell. i felt like this when it ended for a while. then i got hospitalized and recieved a potent antipsychotic injection that doesnt wear off for years, and still have to take antipscyhotic pills reguarly

Now, I cant sleep at all wake up every 3 hours and only get 6 or so, cant take naps, have tics, ocd now, cant feel cigs alcohol or any drugs at all, cant enjoy activities like tv music vidya anything, you cant excercise it destroys you physical ability u get tired in 2 secs, ruins cognitive function, makes memory bad, reflexes bad, cant study or retain information anymore so school is impossible, caffeine and energy drinks dont work, severe depression, no emotions cant feel moods or magical feelings anymore i used to drift off into bliss, no imagination, ruins your ability to socialize or have a conversation, cant form thoughts, blank mind, cant do anything a human does anymore basically, i have ED, my dick is like 2 or 3 inches max now, from 5.5, porn does absolutley nothing, i have no copes, no music, no vidya, no anime, no movies, no netflix. life is not worth living for me at all. you should all be glad you have your copes and not take what you have for granted, alot of folks on here get depressed over things when they have so much that life has to offer still at their hand. i feel jealous of each and every one of you, would trade places in a gigasecond

 

[Kamikaze]

What anti psychotics are you on?
Dont try to quit them, you will start feeling great because of no side effects(because theres still some antipsychotics in your fat tissue) and will
say to yourself "what the heck did I take them for anyways?" And then as their levels drop the dellusional thoughts and psychosis will creep back in.

Unfortunately you cant mix any anti psychotic with drugs or alcohol. Cut that shit, youre setting yourself up for trouble.

Some of what you describe are negative signs that usually new generation anti psychotics like Risperidone manage much better than old drugs like Haloperidol.

Have you discussed the side effects with your physician? Maybe he can balance you out with a different type of anti psychotic. As far as im aware, no anti psychotic lasts for years. Only intra muscular injections for a couple months tops.

If you dont stay balanced, every additional psychotic event does progressive damage to your brain.

Sorry to hear that youre struggling with schizophrenia.

 

[AlexanderTheGreat11]

Brutal as fuck. What keeps you going?

 

[Deleted member 34074]

Holy shit,that sounds hellish,have you tried shrooms?

 

[lostcel]

Brutal as fuck. What keeps you going?

nothing bro i wanna end it everyday, i miss litsening to music everyday and feeling magical and awesome, like the pure bliss euphoria u get from ur favorite music, i miss getting into an anime and binging it for weeks straight and even crying at the end of some of them, i miss have normal thoughts and my normal personality, i miss not being jealous of everyone on planet earth including incels and woman, i miss being excited for new movies or binging harry potter, or wanting to watch the new demon slayer movie, i watched demon slayer back when i was feeling normal but now i have no motivation to watch the movie because i know i will feel nothing, i miss just feeling good in general and having a reason to go throughout the day and looking forward to things, i am a husk of a human being now.

everyday i remember how good my life used to be, ive even forgotten about all the depression and woman shit and realized that even then i was living my best life with coping, it was a comfy depression where u were down about dumb shit but watching anime and playing minecraft and not even thinking about it anymore, cause u had friends to talk to, idk man, idk how to continue, i keep thinking maybe i can quit my meds and go back to normal but its a farshot, ive tried several times and i go back into relapse each time, ive relapsed like 6 or 7 times now, my brain getting worse each time, and taking longer to recover and having more residual symptoms left each time. im still gonna try to quit though cause life like this is not worth it.

What anti psychotics are you on?
Dont try to quit them, you will start feeling great because of no side effects(because theres still some antipsychotics in your fat tissue) and will
say to yourself "what the heck did I take them for anyways?" And then as their levels drop the dellusional thoughts and psychosis will creep back in.

Unfortunately you cant mix any anti psychotic with drugs or alcohol. Cut that shit, youre setting yourself up for trouble.

Some of what you describe are negative signs that usually new generation anti psychotics like Risperidone manage much better than old drugs like Haloperidol.

Have you discussed the side effects with your physician? Maybe he can balance you out with a different type of anti psychotic. As far as im aware, no anti psychotic lasts for years. Only intra muscular injections for a couple months tops.

If you dont stay balanced, every additional psychotic event does progressive damage to your brain.

Sorry to hear that youre struggling with schizophrenia.

yeah ive relapsed like 7 times and my brain got worse each time, it used to go away within 1 or 2 weeks, 1 time a month, but every time afterwords i was completely symptom free, but the last time it was especially bad, it lasted for 2 months +, and this time the voices still lingered sort of in the background. so i know it does more damage each time. also i had an intra muscular injection that ruins your whole life and doesnt wear off for 1-2 years if even it wears off at all, it does some permanent damage and changes to your brain, i dont think u ever fully recover from it, i was actually happy even with just the risperidone before the injection which they forced on me at the hospital even though i said no, hospitals are the most evil places on earth. they dont view u as human.

theres mulstiple entire 300 page threads on how this injection has ruined peoples lives and they never recover, https://www.bluelight.org/xf/threads/coming-off-invega-sustenna-paliperidone-v3.861790/

 

[Deleted member 34301]

Also had a psychotic episode (2 times) including hearing voices and am also on a light dose of meds. Better try to take the lowest dose of meds possible or they'll ruin your life

Obvious point but don't take cigs, drugs and alcohol

 

[Kamikaze]

Try to seek private consultation with a psychiatrist that can take your case and see which medication adjustments might be done
to improve your quality of life. I can see why you have negative reaction towards mental hospitals, but an open dialogue with a physician is important to make the best of a bad situation.

Are you still recieving paliperidone shots?
No anti psychotic injection lasts a year.

Is there any rehabilitation program being offered to you? A place where you can re develop social skills, and recieve some mental support and encouragement? Its often crucial to get you back on track.

 

[Copexodius Maximus]

i use to browse this forum, get upset over things like my dicksize or whether a girl would ever stay with me without cheating, regular human problems

around 2 years i had my first psychotic episode and it has reccurred many times over trying to quit my meds, psychosis is pure hell on earth, its like uve lost the right to live in your own brain, constant commentary on everything u do and making u feel bad for all ur habits, life decisons everything u do, and no free room to think, just constant chatter making you wanna suicide immediately, when it ends u think ur in heaven again, and that was the real hell. i felt like this when it ended for a while. then i got hospitalized and recieved a potent antipsychotic injection that doesnt wear off for years, and still have to take antipscyhotic pills reguarly

Now, I cant sleep at all wake up every 3 hours and only get 6 or so, cant take naps, have tics, ocd now, cant feel cigs alcohol or any drugs at all, cant enjoy activities like tv music vidya anything, you cant excercise it destroys you physical ability u get tired in 2 secs, ruins cognitive function, makes memory bad, reflexes bad, cant study or retain information anymore so school is impossible, caffeine and energy drinks dont work, severe depression, no emotions cant feel moods or magical feelings anymore i used to drift off into bliss, no imagination, ruins your ability to socialize or have a conversation, cant form thoughts, blank mind, cant do anything a human does anymore basically, i have ED, my dick is like 2 or 3 inches max now, from 5.5, porn does absolutley nothing, i have no copes, no music, no vidya, no anime, no movies, no netflix. life is not worth living for me at all. you should all be glad you have your copes and not take what you have for granted, alot of folks on here get depressed over things when they have so much that life has to offer still at their hand. i feel jealous of each and every one of you, would trade places in a gigasecond

Yeah bro, schizo is probably one of the absolute worst thing you can ever have in life I feel.
I hope they find a cure one day, it sounds worse than any hell people like us can be in tbh.
Like it seems worse than going to hell

 

[Deleted member 34301]

i was actually happy even with just the risperidone before the injection which they forced on me at the hospital even though i said no, hospitals are the most evil places on earth. they dont view u as human.

This is very true btw. They forced electroshocks on me and when I protested they tied me to the bed.

 

[lostcel]

Try to seek private consultation with a psychiatrist that can take your case and see which medication adjustments might be done
to improve your quality of life. I can see why you have negative reaction towards mental hospitals, but an open dialogue with a physician is important to make the best of a bad situation.

Are you still recieving paliperidone shots?
No anti psychotic injection lasts a year.

thats what i thought when they said take the shot or we'll lock u up here forever, so i took it, read the thread if u dont believe it lasts forever, that thread makes incel.co complaining posts make look like a cakewalk

 

[Kamikaze]

 

[lostcel]

id trade my life for hamlossus or bo2cel in a heartbeat

 

[Kamikaze]

As you can see, Its mechanism of action is not much different than any other anti psychotic.
I don't think it could have made some permament changes in your neurotransmitter balance.

I don't know your entire medical history and what you've been treated with, but perhaps your current treatment, while keeping you balanced, does not adress your negative symptoms well enough. It wouldnt hurt to see a consultation and medication revision if possible, anything to improve your experience somewhat.

 

[lostcel]

lad on stims i get brief glimpses back into what life was like before the meds
everything used to be so magical and life was the greatest gift u could ever have
how dont people understand this, life is the greatest, when ur mentally h ealthy, its a fucking gift
theres no reason to be down anyday with all the things avialable to someone
the stims stopped working again due to the meds but i had a brief glimpse and it made me realize life is the best thing possible, when ur able to experience it

especially with weed, weed makes life 100x better, and music, i cant smoke it anymore cause i get voices and its what caused my schizophrenia

 

[kanyepilled]

if i could kill myself to give you my life, i would. maybe you would appreciate it more than i do. i can't even remember the last time i felt real empathy over an internet post before this, my condolences go out to you.

 

[Kamikaze]

lad on stims i get brief glimpses back into what life was like before the meds
everything used to be so magical and life was the greatest gift u could ever have
how dont people understand this, life is the greatest, when ur mentally h ealthy, its a fucking gift
theres no reason to be down anyday with all the things avialable to someone
the stims stopped working again due to the meds but i had a brief glimpse and it made me realize life is the best thing possible, when ur able to experience it

especially with weed, weed makes life 100x better, and music, i cant smoke it anymore cause i get voices and its what caused my schizophrenia

Its a matter of perspective. The fact that you would gladly take my life does not make me feel any better about being an aimless lost soul trapped in a hideous shell and forced to live a life of isolation. We all have our cross to bear. I feel nothing from copes anymore.

 

[lostcel]

stims help somewhat but they bring back voices sometimes and they dont work well cause of antipsychotics really, but they give me a small glimpse of what life used to be like before all this, but they are bad for me

 

[lostcel]

fuck i would rather be incel for life and never get to have sex with a woman for the rest of my life or even have a relationship with one rather than live life in the state im living now, thats an easy trade for me.

id go back to smoking weed and drinking and enjoying life and vidya and music again, and feeling real human emotions

 

[Transcended Trucel]

Brutal. life can always get worse pill. incels with health problems by far most fucked

 

[TaciturnCel]

Are you high IQ? Maybe you can Beautiful-Mind-Maxx Russell Crowe style.
Try subliminals on YouTube to cure schizophrenia, its experimental, but fuck it

 

[Sportbro]

Holy shit,that sounds hellish,have you tried shrooms?

Lmao let's give the already insane dude some shrooms
That's internet myths that it helps mental illnesses, I've tried micro dosing and it doesn't work, at the end I felt tired and I couldn't concentrate, it didn't improve my mood at all

Brutal. life can always get worse pill. incels with health problems by far most fucked

Schizophrenia is up there with the worst things our biology can do to us.
It can get a lot worse for sure.

 

[MushBoy]

Lmao let's give the already insane dude some shrooms
That's internet myths that it helps mental illnesses, I've tried micro dosing and it doesn't work, at the end I felt tired and I couldn't concentrate, it didn't improve my mood at all

Schizophrenia is up there with the worst thing our biology can do to us.
It can get a lot worse for sure.

So you make your one experiment with yourself as reference group and experiment rabbit and conclude to have a scientific mythbusting truth? Does not sound very convincing to me.

He should be careful with his stuff. Sounds brutal. But dont give advice you dont understand. Nobody benefits from that.

 

[Sportbro]

So you make your one experiment with yourself as reference group and experiment rabbit and conclude to have a scientific mythbusting truth? Does not sound very convincing to me.

He should be careful with his stuff. Sounds brutal. But dont give advice you dont understand. Nobody benefits from that.

He shouldn't experiment with any drugs if he is schizophrenic
It can make things 1000 times worse than they already are.

 

[MushBoy]

He shouldn't experiment with any drugs if he is schizophrenic
It can make things 1000 times worse than they already are.

Sure thing. I did not argue with that.

 

[BigMorons]

from 5.5

dickmog me

 

[Autismus Maximus]

"and it has reccurred many times over trying to quit my meds"

So the pill pushing shrink put you on neuroleptics immediately instead of providing the time and patience to see you through your psychosis naturally, resulting in severe dependence on neuroleptics and hypersensitivity psychosis. In essence, the drugs turned you into a schizo.

 

[Deleted member 33788]

@lostcel

I was enrolled for medicine studies and had lots of psychiatric classes. Those injections are pure death, i am very sorry they drugged you with that. I had to take medication too and experienced similiar symptoms to you. Your best bet is too wait it out and withdrawl from every medication you have, one by one, 10% of the dosage every 4 weeks. It can be that you will get back to baseline with years of recovery after not taking anything. With that perspective you at least have some hope. Never touch psych drugs again, occasionally you could try a benzo to reduce your symptoms without getting addicted to the benzo. Xanax or Tavor would be an option. I have deep respect for your condition, you are truly suffering and i get that you would do anything to get your health back.

I recommend: Dr Peter Breggin Youtube Videos
Mad in America (website online)
Anatomy of an epidemic by robert withtaker


Much love to you brocel

I will do a prayer for you even though i know its useless

 

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[Kamikaze]

@lostcel

I was enrolled for medicine studies and had lots of psychiatric classes. Those injections are pure death, i am very sorry they drugged you with that. I had to take medication too and experienced similiar symptoms to you. Your best bet is too wait it out and withdrawl from every medication you have, one by one, 10% of the dosage every 4 weeks. It can be that you will get back to baseline with years of recovery after not taking anything. With that perspective you at least have some hope. Never touch psych drugs again, occasionally you could try a benzo to reduce your symptoms without getting addicted to the benzo. Xanax or Tavor would be an option. I have deep respect for your condition, you are truly suffering and i get that you would do anything to get your health back.

I recommend: Dr Peter Breggin Youtube Videos
Mad in America (website online)
Anatomy of an epidemic by robert withtaker


Much love to you brocel

I will do a prayer for you even though i know its useless

How GABA potentiation via benzos solves his problems with high dopamine levels?

 

[Deleted member 34160]

I wss diagnosed with schizophrenia and had most symptoms you listed .
Right now im on latuda and im doing fine
Except for the sleep

 

[dirtykombatcel]

that sucks but what's the point of trying to gather the incels' pity? does it make you feel better?

 

[Deleted member 33788]

How GABA potentiation via benzos solves his problems with high dopamine levels?

benzos are last resort and provide relief for almost everything. Nice throwing in some technical terms but the brain is more complicated than just having high dopamin levels. Benzos are certainly the safest psychiatric drug outthere if one takes care to not get addicted to them.
The can reduce the antipsychotic induced indifference. They reduce the depressiveness due to his state. No psychiatric drug solves any problem anyways, the myth of chemical imbalance is fake. You can only drug the brain and provoke certain states. Mechanism are not really understood. Thats why people suffer for years from injections although any psychiatrist would say blabla after a few months they are out of your system and nothing should happen afterwards etc.

 

[Kamikaze]

benzos are last resort and provide relief for almost everything. Nice throwing in some technical terms but the brain is more complicated than just having high dopamin levels. Benzos are certainly the safest psychiatric drug outthere if one takes care to not get addicted to them.
The can reduce the antipsychotic induced indifference. They reduce the depressiveness due to his state. No psychiatric drug solves any problem anyways, the myth of chemical imbalance is fake. You can only drug the brain and provoke certain states. Mechanism are not really understood. Thats why people suffer for years from injections although any psychiatrist would say blabla after a few months they are out of your system and nothing should happen afterwards etc.

You still did not answer my question: How do benzodiazepines that depress CNS via Gaba potentiation, treat schizophrenia as monotherapy?
Sure they will help with agitation during an acute psychotic event, but how will they treat delusions and negative signs? Do you have any evidence based research to back up your claim before you suggest people to get off anti psychotics that might as well be keeping a person here somewhat balanced, potentially risking a psychotic event?

 

[Deleted member 33788]

You still did not answer my question: How do benzodiazepines that depress CNS via Gaba potentiation, treat schizophrenia as monotherapy?
Sure they will help with agitation during an acute psychotic event, but how will they treat delusions and negative signs? Do you have any evidence based research to back up your claim before you suggest people to get off anti psychotics that might as well be keeping a person here somewhat balanced, potentially risking a psychotic event?

I never said they treat it. He is already on antipsychotics right, he can take benzos to feel better from time to time.
There is a lot of evidence that long term antipsychotic use is bad for the patients health. I will not get into a research paper exchange with you here, i already suggested websites with tons of information he can look up and inform himself. I advise to seek a psychiatrist which is critical of medication and who helps him get off the drugs slowly. Getting off fast can trigger relapse or symptoms similiar to psychosis.

I adviced to reduce one medication only by 10 percent every 4 weeks to see how he is doing with that reduction. Reducing the medication as much as he can will give him better quality of life with less negative effects of the medication. Maybe he can live with half of the dosis without a relapse. Maybe he can live with one fourth of the dosis. Maybe he can even get off and stay sane for some time. I talked with patients who reduced slowly and did not relapse. Its all trial and error.

I do not advice to quit medication cold turkey. Reduce very very slowly and see what happens. Long term goal should be medication free. If that is not possible try to find the lowest dose for maintenance.

Please read the websites i linked.

 

[SryMyEnglish]

Retarded shiteater pigs of abomination of human dignity that call themselves psych doc filled your head with crap.
Before 19th century in the whole USA there was only one mental hospital on 20 beds that never got filled with patients to the full extent and nobody stayed there for a long

 

[Crumb]

im sorry to hear that, i was worried my self that i was at risk for schizophrnia due to occasionally hearing voices in my early twenties. however it never evolved past that

 

[Incelius Savage]

Mine is worser than yours OP