Being ugly and aware of it will drive you crazy. You know you will never have sex and that makes you realize the futility of your existance. Along with that, you are able to see how flawed the world is and how suffering is the natural state of everything. You see happy couples everywhre but realize that they are only happy because the endorphins they release during sex makes them oblivious to the cruelty and unfairness of nature.
The injustice of reality consumes you and you start having thoughts of destroying everything, all living things on the planet. Total anihilaition of life starts to appeal as a solution to the problems of this world. You can rationalize it pefectly with your accurate perception of reality. There is no good or evil. Nature is inherently evil since it's gonna make some people kings, some people slaves and ever worse, some people dead.
The injustice of reality consumes you and you start having thoughts of destroying everything, all living things on the planet. Total anihilaition of life starts to appeal as a solution to the problems of this world. You can rationalize it pefectly with your accurate perception of reality. There is no good or evil. Nature is inherently evil since it's gonna make some people kings, some people slaves and ever worse, some people dead.
