Life sucks, and humanity is infinitely evil. I am tired of existence in its entirety, when I die I want my conscience to be evaporated forever. Living forever even under perfect conditions sounds like the worst nightmare imaginable. Not to mention that there would be other people there, who absolutely do not deserve happiness. If anything my heaven would be watching normies burn in hell, but even that would get old after a few years. I do not want to associate with those vermin, every waking moment around other normies makes me want to waterboard them with boiling oil. I don't want to go to heaven, I want to stop existing. My soul is already dead. A year ago I almost got jumped when riding my bike and I felt zero fear at all. I saw someone get shot outside my house a few years ago and it didn't faze me at all. The most disturbing vids in the internet don't faze me either, its so bland. I am also losing sex drive. Got no motivation to be successful. I dont want to go heaven, not that i believe it even exists.
