black_depresso
You won't change reality, friend
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- Joined
- Jun 13, 2019
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After a day of mediocrity and being an ugly ogre I at least want to come home to relax and feel good about SOMETHING that I am GOOD AT
WHY MUST I NOT BE GOOD AT ANYTHING
I lose continuously in games. It used to make me angry, now I just get disappointed. Yet another thing I cannot look at and go, yea, you know what? I like that. I have fun doing it. I can see my skill progress and it feels good knowing I accomplished something with my skill
I just feel like a useless fuck who cannot be proud of anything because I don’t have ANY natural talent towards anything. The closest thing I have to an accomplishment is a decent intelligence. Decent not great. I struggled immensely in my theoretical physics work at university while it interspersed with suicidal episodes and complete annihilation of my happiness. I was just good at high school stuff. Now I struggle with everything I’m doing.
WHY MUST I NOT BE GOOD AT ANYTHING
I lose continuously in games. It used to make me angry, now I just get disappointed. Yet another thing I cannot look at and go, yea, you know what? I like that. I have fun doing it. I can see my skill progress and it feels good knowing I accomplished something with my skill
I just feel like a useless fuck who cannot be proud of anything because I don’t have ANY natural talent towards anything. The closest thing I have to an accomplishment is a decent intelligence. Decent not great. I struggled immensely in my theoretical physics work at university while it interspersed with suicidal episodes and complete annihilation of my happiness. I was just good at high school stuff. Now I struggle with everything I’m doing.