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With the intent to inflict death
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I tried in 2016 but was brought back to life by hospital staff. The one time in my life I finally had the stones to stop larping a nurse felt compelled to check into my room because of bad vibes and remove the puke filled plastic bag from my unconscious head.
Basically 2 reasons still holding me back from mustering the courage and go for it.
1. Family. My mom and dad do love/care for me. Im more blessed than a lot of other incels in this regard. Yet this blessing also dooms me to continue dwelling on earth.
2. Reincarnation/afterlife. Im terrified of reincarnating and have frequent nightmares about being forced to live forerever just in different shape. I wanted to become a Buddhist monk for a long time so I could get enlightened and never have to exist in any way, shape or form again. Not as a ghost, fish, rock or whatever just all traces completely erased of my existence. Each atom of my body being permadeleted from the universe. The total suicide.
What do .cocels here think of the Buddhist reincarnation theory?
Basically 2 reasons still holding me back from mustering the courage and go for it.
1. Family. My mom and dad do love/care for me. Im more blessed than a lot of other incels in this regard. Yet this blessing also dooms me to continue dwelling on earth.
2. Reincarnation/afterlife. Im terrified of reincarnating and have frequent nightmares about being forced to live forerever just in different shape. I wanted to become a Buddhist monk for a long time so I could get enlightened and never have to exist in any way, shape or form again. Not as a ghost, fish, rock or whatever just all traces completely erased of my existence. Each atom of my body being permadeleted from the universe. The total suicide.
What do .cocels here think of the Buddhist reincarnation theory?