NorthernWind
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I was born by a psychopathic father and a sadistic, probably having one, or several mental illnesses, mother. She was genuinely incapable of feeling any love, warmth and affection towards her children ( I also have older sister ). For some reasons father used to beat my sister, not me. One of my early clear childhood memories ( when I was 4 y.o. ) is about my sister wanting to jump from the window ( father obviously sexually exploited her, I'm not even sure about myself ). Yet, our mother never really showed emotional understanding towards us, never consoled us. Once at winter it was slippery and I almost get hit by a car, and mother did nothing, just watched. I don't necessary blame it on her bad will, more likely some mental defects ( I know she had a meningitis ). Father don't really cared about me ( he was almost always angry and treatened to kill everyone and engaged in the fights with my sister who wanted to harm him because he sexually abused her ). I was raised mainly by the cold and hateful mother who on the other hand was overprotective, on the other hand wanted to raise me resilent to pain ( don't cry at the dentist office when I was 6. y.o. child etc ).
It was cold and bitter childhood full of nervousness yet it could be worse. Some parent kill their children, hurt badly etc. The one thing I really hate about society, every society on earth that existed, is that it does NOTHING to make a lives of such persons more warmer and bearable. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. The are free abortion clinics, blood donation centres, resources for mentally ill people but ABSOLUTELY FUCKING NOTHING when it comes to wanting to experience a human warmth, human connection. No one in the history didn't created a cente where you can experience warmth and care from a woman. Escorts often are a girls in search of easy money, they don't interested in you personally. The family life is about adult responsibilities there main care from wife goes to children and man cannot treat his wife as a mother.
For those who don't experienced any warmth from a woman and were deprived of emotional care during childhood, there literally nothing exists. NOTHING. Society never cared about children who experienced shitty childhood. I mean, I could pay some woman to touch her, to feel warmth of her body, hair, to engage in conversation with her but there isn't any fucking options ( also, doing that during childhood or teenage years would be a great experience, as adult, it is somewhat creepy ).
Societal attitude towards it's unlucky members illustrated by one doctor at maternity hospital which said to those who tried to console abandoned children : ' don't do it, they better to prepare for hard living'. FUCK SOCIETY.
It was cold and bitter childhood full of nervousness yet it could be worse. Some parent kill their children, hurt badly etc. The one thing I really hate about society, every society on earth that existed, is that it does NOTHING to make a lives of such persons more warmer and bearable. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. The are free abortion clinics, blood donation centres, resources for mentally ill people but ABSOLUTELY FUCKING NOTHING when it comes to wanting to experience a human warmth, human connection. No one in the history didn't created a cente where you can experience warmth and care from a woman. Escorts often are a girls in search of easy money, they don't interested in you personally. The family life is about adult responsibilities there main care from wife goes to children and man cannot treat his wife as a mother.
For those who don't experienced any warmth from a woman and were deprived of emotional care during childhood, there literally nothing exists. NOTHING. Society never cared about children who experienced shitty childhood. I mean, I could pay some woman to touch her, to feel warmth of her body, hair, to engage in conversation with her but there isn't any fucking options ( also, doing that during childhood or teenage years would be a great experience, as adult, it is somewhat creepy ).
Societal attitude towards it's unlucky members illustrated by one doctor at maternity hospital which said to those who tried to console abandoned children : ' don't do it, they better to prepare for hard living'. FUCK SOCIETY.