Serious Why does everything have to be so hard? Whether being loved or painless suicide, everything that's good requires luck and I just don't have it.

[Bronzehawkattack]

I just broke down weeping a second ago tbh.

I've been spending all of today and yesterday trying to source my preferred methods of suicide.
Either downing Nembutal or suffocating in a nitrogen hood.

And I can't even do that right. I can't even source these two things. They won't let me enjoy happy life, but they won't let me enjoy a blissful death either.
It's like I'm trapped in hell and they won't give me an easy out.

Everything in life I don't have the luck to do. I don't have the luck to have been born normal looking, or even to have had a normal upbringing and thus be social and have a lot of fond memories that don't just involve videogames.
I don't have the luck to have just happened to stumble into a relationship despite being a horrendous looking ethnic. I don't have the luck to have even procure a blissful, ideal suicide method. Instead they would have me splatter my brains on train tracks after several seconds of terror, or free fall hundreds of feet in the air while my body gives me panic signals.

They want me to suffer, just because I'm unlucky.
Or maybe It's my incompetence, maybe someone smarter if placed in my body would have found the love of my life, or managed to procure a nitrogen sui kit.
Either way, I'm so extremely tired of it all. I'm tired of being unfortunate. I'm so tired of failing.
I'm so tired of being an incompetent, hideous, unlovable, disgusting mess.

If there's one thing the universe can grant me, It's my blissful death. That's all I need. I don't need a girlfriend, money, status, none of that, just at least grant me this mercy.

 

[E.R.DidNothingWrong]

Life is not, and has never been easy for most people. Brother I would please beg you to try finding a local church that you could attend and try looking to heaven for guidance and assistance in this stressful time of yours. Also read the book of Job and find some Catholic commentaries on it, as it is a very relevant story for many people on here.

I'll say a prayer for you tonight brother

 

[Bronzehawkattack]

Life is not, and has never been easy for most people. Brother I would please beg you to try finding a local church that you could attend and try looking to heaven for guidance and assistance in this stressful time of yours. Also read the book of Job and find some Catholic commentaries on it, as it is a very relevant story for many people on here.

I'll say a prayer for you tonight brother

Praying to the church won't make me loved. God can go fuck himself.
If god really wants to help me he can kill me in my sleep tonight. Otherwise fuck him.

 

[E.R.DidNothingWrong]

Praying to the church won't make me loved. God can go fuck himself.
If god really wants to help me he can kill me in my sleep tonight. Otherwise fuck him.

You already are loved, it'd simply be a matter of you discovering it. I would greatly encourage you at least trying this if you truly feel as if there's nothing more to life, this is one great part of life that you are intentionally not pursuing but should be.

 

[Bronzehawkattack]

That's the only thing I'll be praying to god for. Kill me in my fucking sleep.

 

[Qadr]

Praying to the church won't make me loved. God can go fuck himself.
If god really wants to help me he can kill me in my sleep tonight. Otherwise fuck

That's the only thing I'll be praying to god for. Kill me in my fucking sleep.

Listen buddy, If there is only 1 thing that makes u feel powerful and forgov ur problems just stick to it, suicide is not a good way to go unless you want to take someone with u too, I am not blessed with luck as well, have to fight for everything, when others seems to be happy and lileterally “blessed with a luck”

 

[Bronzehawkattack]

Listen buddy, If there is only 1 thing that makes u feel powerful and forgov ur problems just stick to it, suicide is not a good way to go unless you want to take someone with u too, I am not blessed with luck as well, have to fight for everything, when others seems to be happy and lileterally “blessed with a luck”

The only way I take someone with me is if they're a suicidal incel too and ask me.
Otherwise I'm going alone. I don't hate women enough to hurt them, they just don't want me.

Idgaf if that's passe to say here, I'm not an angsty teenager anymore, I don't want to cause more pain and suffering with my death, I just want to be done with it. I'm in my mid-20's and have never so much as held a girl's hand, I'm not angry, I'm just defeated and tired and want to move on to the next world without anymore struggle and strife but they won't even make that easy for me.

 

[Qadr]

The only way I take someone with me is if they're a suicidal incel too and ask me.
Otherwise I'm going alone. I don't hate women enough to hurt them, they just don't want me.

Idgaf if that's passe to say here, I'm not an angsty teenager anymore, I don't want to cause more pain and suffering with my death, I just want to be done with it. I'm in my mid-20's and have never so much as held a girl's hand, I'm not angry, I'm just defeated and tired and want to move on to the next world without anymore struggle and strife but they won't even make that easy for me.

So, If you plan to take your life i will not judge it, but if you look at it you are alone now, If death will be your last thing to do so At least Die with someone no matter who it is.. also iam not encouraging you to do that just sayin

 

[Bronzehawkattack]

So, If you plan to take your life i will not judge it, but if you look at it you are alone now, If death will be your last thing to do so At least Die with someone no matter who it is.. also iam not encouraging you to do that just sayin

Live alone die alone.

Even if supermodel escort were willing to take money to cuddle me while I breathed in inert gas, I wouldn't do it, because I'd feel so disgusted with myself even in death. If I'm going to die, I'm going to do it alone because that's how I was forced to live.

 

[lifefuel]

Charcoal grill method, mayne...

That, or a gun

 

[Qadr]

Live alone die alone.

Even if supermodel escort were willing to take money to cuddle me while I breathed in inert gas, I wouldn't do it, because I'd feel so disgusted with myself even in death. If I'm going to die, I'm going to do it alone because that's how I was forced to live.

I got it, but do not forget one thing buddy, a suffering, disappointment, pain that you feel and live with idk how long, years? You are stronger than other non incels, our community got you, Iam not blessed with good things either, also iam not very good looking, never had gfs, but we are experiencing a life from different perspective, not easy one but noticable.

 

[The Enforcer]

Euthanasia should be an available service tbh. I'd jump at that. They increasingly crack down on the more peaceful methods of exit, all while refusing people the option of a dignified, peaceful, painless and calm death. I get the government probably wants to use us as tax bunnies or someshit. But society in general either doenst care if we die, or actively wants us to die.

I personally find it cruel as fuck that we're given 2 choices. Either live in utter misery, all while people get off on watching us suffer. Or choose a messed up, failure prone, pain prone method of suicide in a mental breakdown tier state.

 

[Bronzehawkattack]

Charcoal grill method, mayne...

That, or a gun

The first one is a non-option for multiple reasons.

Gun is my last resort, and even that's easy to fuck up if you don't hit the brain at the right angle in the mouth.

Euthanasia should be an available service tbh. I'd jump at that. They increasingly crack down on the more peaceful methods of exit, all while refusing people the option of a dignified, peaceful, painless and calm death. I get the government probably wants to use us as tax bunnies or someshit. But society in general either doenst care if we die, or actively wants us to die.

I personally find it cruel as fuck that we're given 2 choices. Either live in utter misery, all while people get off on watching us suffer. Or choose a messed up, failure prone, pain prone method of suicide in a mental breakdown tier state.

Not owed love and companionship, but also not actively denied euthanasia.
They enjoy our suffering.

 

[Mortis]

Euthanasia should be an available service tbh.

I got recommended to consider euthanasia by my psychiatrist at 18 lmao