1TZ0VER
Recruit
★★★★
- Joined
- Jul 30, 2023
- Posts
- 334
I didn't even fucking anything to deserve the humiliation I've had to go through.
I changed school for a fresh start to escape my 'quiet kid' persona and start fresh by just being myself. I've never been mean to fucking anyone yet they still call me npc, tease me, mimmick me. I've fucking had enough. Even in my friendgroup i stand awkwardly on the outside. I've never fit in anywhere, I'll never get social cues and no matter how hard i act NT people will see right through my mask. Ironically I've been masking so long I barely even know who I am now. I also get called robotic, emotionless and not one single fucking person has ever asked me why. The only person who's ever shown care to me who wasn't family is my teacher who probably thinks im creepy anyway for buying chocolate fot her. They don't how hard I want to be emotional but I can't because I feel nothing constantly. My only way of copinf is wandering into town drunk at night and bawl out my eyes just to feel something. Why did this shit have to happen to me?
I changed school for a fresh start to escape my 'quiet kid' persona and start fresh by just being myself. I've never been mean to fucking anyone yet they still call me npc, tease me, mimmick me. I've fucking had enough. Even in my friendgroup i stand awkwardly on the outside. I've never fit in anywhere, I'll never get social cues and no matter how hard i act NT people will see right through my mask. Ironically I've been masking so long I barely even know who I am now. I also get called robotic, emotionless and not one single fucking person has ever asked me why. The only person who's ever shown care to me who wasn't family is my teacher who probably thinks im creepy anyway for buying chocolate fot her. They don't how hard I want to be emotional but I can't because I feel nothing constantly. My only way of copinf is wandering into town drunk at night and bawl out my eyes just to feel something. Why did this shit have to happen to me?