Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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I'm surprised at how useless I am.
Not only am I bored quickly, can't focus and find everything pointless, so I don't really try at anything and haven't ever in my life since I was a kid.
But even when I do kinda give try something, I give up so, so quickly. I always give up on things, even in games or other trivial stuff I give up, much less important or productive stuff. Even when I tell myself strongly that this time it will be different, I always give up and I just go rot. I've been rotting in bed with my laptop since I was a kid.
Also I can't focus for shit, my mind is hazy and numb and slow.
I can't do shit. Tried my hand at programming several times, gave up in mere hours. Drawing - like a retarded monkey. Music - my parents even tried and bought me guitars and paid for a teacher - I never practiced, I chose to lay in bed rotting with my laptop instead. Tried writing for about 2 days, gave up on that too. Literally not good at anything. And not really interested in anything either.
Even the degrees I chose - useless meme degrees where I could put in the minimum required effort.
God damn why have I been like this since I was a kid, what's wrong with me?
Not only am I bored quickly, can't focus and find everything pointless, so I don't really try at anything and haven't ever in my life since I was a kid.
But even when I do kinda give try something, I give up so, so quickly. I always give up on things, even in games or other trivial stuff I give up, much less important or productive stuff. Even when I tell myself strongly that this time it will be different, I always give up and I just go rot. I've been rotting in bed with my laptop since I was a kid.
Also I can't focus for shit, my mind is hazy and numb and slow.
I can't do shit. Tried my hand at programming several times, gave up in mere hours. Drawing - like a retarded monkey. Music - my parents even tried and bought me guitars and paid for a teacher - I never practiced, I chose to lay in bed rotting with my laptop instead. Tried writing for about 2 days, gave up on that too. Literally not good at anything. And not really interested in anything either.
Even the degrees I chose - useless meme degrees where I could put in the minimum required effort.
God damn why have I been like this since I was a kid, what's wrong with me?
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