Not just going through the motions, numb and just surviving.
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Havent felt alive since I was alive.
when I died
Best life.
last night, after squats
I only feel alive when I’m on drugs.
Last time I was alive and happy while sober was when I was a child. Puberty killed my joy.
Last time I was alive and happy while sober was when I was a child. Puberty killed my joy.
not srs
I still have emotions.
probably 6th grade
When I fell down the stairs last week.
Last time without drugs was probabaly 4th grade. With drugs when I had an ego death on shrooms a few weeks ago
When we found St. BlackOps2cel tbh.
Before 12
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The day I finished university and the few moments after escortcelling. I can't call the rest of my existence "life".
today at the gym ,to be honest.
Back when I was 16 so that is 8½ years ago.
After my depression went away at 20 years old I haven´t felt any real emotions, depression made me feel sadness and when the depression went away so did my last feeling (sadness) I miss being able to feel everything so insanely much, being a teenager is experiencing feelings times a thousands now even when I cry which I only can sometimes when looking through nostalgic stuff it isn´t even 10% as intense as it was when I was a teenager. Seriously life is over at 18 but tbh there are no point of living past 20 years old, after 20 life is just a responsible adult life with mundane and trivial tasks every day, every day is the same nothing changes nothing is exciting anymore I don´t even enjoy video games anymore I can´t wait to kill myself.
After my depression went away at 20 years old I haven´t felt any real emotions, depression made me feel sadness and when the depression went away so did my last feeling (sadness) I miss being able to feel everything so insanely much, being a teenager is experiencing feelings times a thousands now even when I cry which I only can sometimes when looking through nostalgic stuff it isn´t even 10% as intense as it was when I was a teenager. Seriously life is over at 18 but tbh there are no point of living past 20 years old, after 20 life is just a responsible adult life with mundane and trivial tasks every day, every day is the same nothing changes nothing is exciting anymore I don´t even enjoy video games anymore I can´t wait to kill myself.
What was so good about uni? Sucked for me. Although all the free time doing jack shit was very, very nice. I miss that.
Depression isn't just sadness. Anhedonia (inability to feel pleasure) and no emotions is depression too.
2010.
A few minutes ago after washing my cock
I don’t even remember, it’s been a very long time
Rofl.
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Because I had excellent marks, graduated before the expected date and I saw stupid femoids failing exams and crying when they were sent home to study again. The rest of my life was quiet desperation, though. Why did it suck?
There was a week ago or something when I got very euphoric and happy for no reason and particular and I'd say that was it. But today I went to Wal-Mart and got pretty excited as well tbh.
when i knockout a normie
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a few years ago
cruising at 146mph hehe
I hate this god damn society, why are these things illegal and so demonized? If it were up to me I'd be high every day. Damn society, I'll even work 12 hours a day, just let me get high in my spare time for fuck's sake.
never I feel dead inside every single day
Maybe that's cause of that Millennium ring around your neck.
stealing from my netto , getting alcohol , getting copes
Not worried about getting caught?
Yeah its just been driving me further into darkness and depression. I have permanently damaged my mind and there is no recovery from the truths that I have learned. I will never escape this dark abyss I have driven my self into
because jews don't want us to be free and thinking for ourself, (((our rulers))) treat us as little children who can't decide for themselves
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